Living … One day at a time.

Good Morning and we are cruising toward November 1, 2019.

Where did the time go?

I cannot believe it is less than two months until Christmas and then the New Year.

2020.

That freaks me out just a little bit.

When I was a child I actually thought of this year and 2025.

What would be going on in the world?

Where would my family be?

Wondering if I fulfilled my dreams of being a Registered Nurse and a Writer.

Where would I be living?

Would I be happy?

The house with the white picket fence was that in my future?

Four children ….. two girls and two boys, of course.

That was my perfection.

Grandchildren possibly.

One never knows where life will take you.

I am perfectly happy with the way that things turned out.

I am okay with the choices that I made.

Perhaps I could / should have done things differently but then I would not have and be where I am today.

It is a package deal.

You cannot have one person, one thing without the other.

So if I zigged instead of zagged …. I could have been living on a farm in southeastern Saskatchewan or perhaps in the big City of Regina or in London or New York.

I may have been married with more than one child.

I may have become a nurse.

Who knows?

But I know that the choices I made at the time were right for me at that time.

I have the most exquisite daughter.

I have my best buddy Mr. Alvin.

I have a job that sometimes drives me crazy.

I have a house which I bought on my own.

I am healthy.

Life is good.

I am surrounded by great friends.

I have the best sister and brothers on the planet.

So that is that.

I have never spent much time worrying or thinking about what may have been …..

I believe in living in the present …..

You cannot change the past but you can change the present which changes the futures.

Now that is a lot of change….

 

Just living my life trying to be kind and respectful.

 

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

Living … One day at a time.

Hello,

Beautiful morning …. no breeze but the air is cool so I have the windows open before heading out to work.

With the blinds closed – the house will stay cool most of the day.

We walked right after work last night in the rain.

Only did half the walk and then later after supper the sun came out.

But we did enjoy a nice walk in the rain.

Only got a bit wet.

Thankfully not a downpour.

But then again we wouldn’t go if it was raining hard.

There is something healing about walking in a nice rain.

Touching nature.

 

Looks like our services will be in high demand over the next little while.

Master Teddy is coming Thursday night until Saturday night.

My daughter asked if their two could stay with us Saturday till Monday.

Then next week the Humphrey.

YAY, my favourite thing to do …. is to be surrounded by the pups and the cat.

All of our four-legged fur babies.

 

Looks like the sun is peeping through the morning cloud cover.

Always a good thing to see.

 

Only a short time until my beloved sister comes for a visit.

She is my only sister.

My “little sis” …. my younger sister.

I am so excited to see her again.

We are going to have so much fun.

My sister, my daughter and I are going to take a short road trip.

YAY.

Then my sister and I will be joined by another brother to go and see our other brother.

Try and say that five times fast.

Not this gal.

So excited to be blessed to have this time together with my family.

 

I love our sibling get togethers.

Nice to catch up.

Looks like this girls road trip is going to be an annual event.

Happy about that.

 

Feeling so grateful to be surrounded by great family and friends.

Feeling so grateful that I, we will have all our fur-babies coming to see us over the next week and a bit.

Feeling so grateful that my daughter is giving me a ride home tonight (also going to COSTCO).

Feeling so grateful for the moisture and moderate temperatures.

Feeling so grateful to have Mr. Alvin by my side.

Feeling so grateful that I get up and swing my legs to the floor, this morning, and all others.

 

With kindness and respect I shall enter this day and do my best all day long.

 

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

 

Thought for the day ……

Good Morning and Welcome to Saturday the 10th day of November, 2018.

Today my second youngest brother would have been “55” years old.

He passed in March of 2009.

We miss him terribly.

Today I am thinking of him and our loss of his spirit.

We miss you buddy.

The boy with the big heart.

 

 

IF I HAD KNOWN

Looking at photos of us when we were kids.

It seems like only yesterday,

but it was a lifetime ago.

Things have changed.

We were five now we’re four.

How I long for those days.

When we were all together.

When playing school, all sitting in a row … I’d be the teacher…

Running about the yard playing in a nearby slough looking for tadpoles …

Playing in the dirt ….

Imagining driving to far off places in that old black car, and eating Mom’s homemade french fries and pumpkin pie.

Playing hide and seek and watching Disney on Sundays.

Was what we did, when we were just kids.

Now we’re grown,

Time has past.

If only I had known,

We would be four and not five.

I would have taken your hand.

I would have told you how much I loved you every day.

I would have loved you better.

I would have visited you more often.

I should have tried.

I would have known your pain.

I would have understood.

I would have known your favourite song.

I would have known your favourite colour.

I would have known you better.

Now we’re four and it’s too late

For me to take your hand.

To share your pain, and to comfort you.

I wished that I had knew you better.

Between the pain and the laughter.

You were a man, and I remember the boy

The little boy with a zest for life.

The little boy that always seemed to find a way ….. now that’s our secret….

That irresistible little guy that made me smile.

The little boy with such a big heart.

That much I did know when the boy became the man.

I feel that I let you down, but it is too late

I wished that I knew your favourite song.

Or what you made you cry late at night.

Why the time passed so fast.

Now we’re four instead of five

What did you think?  Your thoughts?

I wished that I knew.

If I had, I had only known  the man, not just the boy.

 

Written by Carol Yvonne Lewis, January 8th, 2010

Jeff and his sisters at Christmas

Grandpa Jim & All 5 of us ……

Jeff & two of five (Cindy & John)

Jeff and three of five (Carol, Cindy & John)

Jeff and Five of Five (Tyler, Cindy, Carol & John) – 1992

 

Special Hello to: my little brother ….. miss you

Always, Carol & Alvin

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 5th day of November, 2018.

Time changed over the weekend.

So even though the clock shows 6:15 a.m., it still feels like 5:15 a.m.

We set our clocks one hour back …. Fall back.

We will get used to it at some point.

Change is good?

 

Rain and snow mix gradually over the course of the day and night turned to just the white stuff.

So we have a nice white blanket covering the ground this morning.

This means some shovelling in my future (tonight).

Exercise – it is all good.

Also is a reminder to get out and pick up poop as it happens otherwise you may have to seek it out and that can be difficult.

Okay, perhaps that was a bit more information that you needed or wanted.

Sorry.

 

I was just thinking this morning about something.

Was there a point in your life that defined your future?

Something that changed the way you thought about the future  or the way that you looked at the world, your world?

An event perhaps that spoke to you?

Someone you met?

A place you travelled to?

Something you ate?

Now there could absolutely be more than one point that changed the trajectory of your life at that point.

These babies, my four siblings.

Changed the trajectory of my life.

They were my first babies.

And, feel so to this day.

I have felt like their Mom, their teacher, their protector.

These four lights changed my life forever.

They formed me into who I am today.

I am forever grateful.

 

Well almost time to don the winter garb and head out.

Happy Monday.

Special Hello to: my sister and brothers.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Friday the 26th day of October 2018.

The house is extra quiet this morning without our little friend Teddy.

He brings joy to our house.

Alvin misses him, I know as he is following me extra close this morning.

Guess it is just you and me for now.

Me and You, You and Me, Mr. Alvin.

Oh my boy.

 

Last night after arriving home to two excited pups.

I tried to let them go outside but both them ran to find a chew treat to take with them.

Teddy grabbed a toy first and shook it about and then finally after a few minutes grabbed a chew treat and out he went.

I cannot imagine how it must feel to not pee for that many hours.

In my defence, if there is such a thing, I had left pee pads out.

One in the kitchen and one in the front entranceway.

After eating and changing and some time to say hello, we went for a walk.

We walked Teddy home.

It was light jacket weather and oh, so beautiful.

So enjoyed the past few walks as the weather has been perfect.

The boys walked along side by side like two brothers OR father and son.

They have the same colouring so often times before close inspection folks believe they are related.

They bring a joy to my heart and settle me right down after my day.

Thank you my furry bundles of joy.

Thank you.

 

When we arrived at Teddy’s home, his Momma and Papa invited us in for tea.

Well me for tea and well Alvin straight to Teddy’s food dish.

Made short work of that….. what a guy.

Followed by treats.

Not quite sure where he puts all that food.

We had tea and a wonderful visit.

 

Well thankfully it is Friday.

I love Fridays and the weekends.

Time to do things around the house and spend time with Alvin and sometimes family and friends.

I love putzing about the house and yard.

I am ever so grateful that I am able to live here in this home and have a yard.

My heart is full with family, friends, Alvin, this house, this life.

I have enough YING and YANG to keep me going for several decades.

The perfect balance between home and work life.

Although I would love to find a way to make a living by writing.

Just have to do it.

Sometimes we are our own worst roadblocks.

 

Well almost time to leave for work.

I hope that you have an awesome Friday.

Take some time for you – always take some time for you.

If you are not in a good place you are not able to be in good places with others.

 

Special Hello to: my youngest brother who is starting to awaken a new dream, you can do it.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 29th day of August, 2018.

It is dark out although the sky appears to be getting light now at 6:15 a.m.

No rain overnight.

The smoke seems to have lightened mostly and I hope that the fires in British Columbia and elsewhere are going out or have gone out.

I wanted to share another “Apple Crisp” story …

Last night with nothing left that resembles milk in any fashion; I opted to use the “choke cherry syrup” that Teddy’s Mom gave me.

It was so good, I may have to use it instead of milk for awhile.

The syrup was so good.

 

Of all the time we spend on this earth most of it is spent fashioning relationships.

We have positive and negatives relationships.

There are ones that make you want to pull out your hair and then there are ones that you simply cannot live without.

I think because we have both YING and YANG in our life’s relationships that keep us growing and living.

They keep us falling in love, in love and falling out of love.

They help us manage our lives.

Without relationships we would not exist.

In my opinion.

Even if you live on your own like me, relationships of all sorts play an important role.

 

My relationship with my four-legged buddy, Alvin.

He “loves me unconditionally.” (more when I have treats, of course).

He is happy when he gets a neck massage.

He makes me smile.

He makes me feel important.

 

My relationship with my daughter.

One of the most important of my life.

She is the best and not just because she is my daughter but because she is this warm, kind and generous human being.

She lights my day and night sky.

I feel as though she was my most best achievement.

Giving birth to her changed my life.

 

We have our relationships with our siblings.

My sister and I share this incredible bond.

Our lives.

We sound almost identical and are eighteen months apart, so not twins.

She has been there forever ( I am the older of us).

She makes me laugh and no one tells a joke like she does.

She is a great reminder of what was, what is and what can be.

I have two brothers whom I love very much.

My only regret is that I do not know them as well as I should.

Life happens.

 

I have relationships with people that I grew up with, school chums, work mates, neighbours and other folks that I have met on the bus or along my 60+ years.

They all play an important role in who I am.

I am what I am because of all of these relationships.

Mostly positive.

 

Well time to go to work.

I hope that you will think about your relationships as they are so important to each of us.

 

Happy Wednesday.

 

Special Hello to: my sister and all of my girl friends.  Thank you for being in my life.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

 

 

 

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 27th day of December, 2017.

Another COLD COLD day for us here in Edmonton and in Western CANADA.

We had a wonderful Christmas with our family.

Chatted with my brothers on Christmas Day and my sister.

Chatted with our friends from Regina…

Hard to believe that Christmas is all over for another year.

The decorations and our inflated bellies are all that remains.

I tried “Jamie Oliver’s” recipe for cooking the turkey and gravy this Christmas and was happy with the results.

An easy and extremely tasty way to make the turkey and gravy.

SANTA CLAUS was good to both me and Alvin.

My daughter and her family slept over two nights at our house which was so nice.

We ATE and ATE and ATE too much.

We played a new game for the kids but not new for me, “SEQUENCE.”

So much fun ……

 

It feels like early in the morning but here it is almost 8:30 a.m.

The sun is not up.

 

I am most grateful to have this week at home.

Our office is closed this week.

So grateful.

 

Well time to go and have a shower and wake up.

Alvin has an appointment this afternoon at his Doctor’s.

No worries, just his regular pedicure and stuff.

We are grateful that our friend is giving us a ride for I fear a walk in this cold would freeze his paws.

 

Have an awesome day.

Special Hello to: all my friends all over the world.

 

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

 

Thought for the day ……

Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 21st day of August, 2017.

Well today is the last day of vacation for this girl.

Man, I have loved every last minute of it.

Alvin and I are just getting ready to take a little walk to his Vet and pick up some food for the guy.

Cannot run out of food for sure.

The ECLIPSE will happen in just a bit over one hour so need to get busy here.

Do not wish to be outside when it happens.

I wish that I had the glasses to wear to observe it but alas I do not.

So will watch it on television.

 

So on this Monday ….. I am so grateful that during my vacation I was able to spend time with my sister, both of my brothers, my eldest nephew and his family, so many of my friends, old neighbours that came back to

visit me and Alvin, and my “niece” and her family from Saskatchewan and MY daughter, son-in-law and grand-pups.

Without my daughter and her family all of this would not have been possible.  So grateful for their love and support.

It was great to be able to take in High Tea in the Hotel Selkirk at Fort Edmonton Park with my daughter and sister.

We had so much fun riding on the carousel and the girls on the high swing.

The weather was great.

I was terribly spoiled by attention and gifts for the past two weeks.

So much so,I am overwhelmed with blessings and gratitude.

 

Time to get this show on the road before the “light” goes out.

Have an awesome day and DO NOT look at the ECLIPSE without special eyewear.

 

Special Hello to: my family and friends.

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Sunday, July 23, 2017 and it is the 18th day until my 60th Birthday.

What makes me happy? joyful?

Simple things, actually.

I love walking with Alvin in the earlier part of the morning before it gets warm (in the summer).

I love reading a good book.

I love sharing a good cup of coffee with my daughter and all my friends.

I love snuggling with me Alvin on the sofa watching a movie.

I love good food, nothing complicated, simple, honest food.

I do love chocolate (try to do in moderation not always successful).

I love to laugh with my sister and my brothers.

I love ALL time spent with my daughter.

I love doing creative projects with my daughter whether jewellery making or something else.

I love good conversation with my super knowledgable son-in-law.

I love sitting on the deck in the summertime gazing up at the stars.

I love the simple things in life.

The smell of a baby.

The smell of the roses that line the pathway to our parks.

The touch of a cool breeze on my face.

Walking through puddles of water and splashing (just like a little one).

The list is a mile long but always simple things.

 

Always, Carol

 

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Sunday, July 16, 2017 and it is the 25th day until my 60th Birthday.

OMG, getting closer to only three weeks till the big day and even less until my sister arrives.

I cannot wait.

Seems like forever since I wrapped my arms around here and that we giggled till our tummies hurt.

Better than going to some foreign country or to some tropical beach spending time with my sister, my daughter and my brother.

This will be a vacation to remember for sure.

Time to get things in order in the house, thankfully the basement is done although really it was in order.

Make up the menu for the company.

Make up the guest room just in time for the company.

Freshly washed sheets, a must.

Oh I cannot wait.

We do not see each other more than once a year but when we do we make up for it.

Time well spent.

I am so excited to have two whole weeks off from work.

The first time that I have taken 10 whole days off in a row in the almost 6 years that I have worked there.

Very exciting.

 

1998:  a big year.  My daughter graduated from High School with Honours, Started University of Regina that September in the Arts Program majoring in Film.  Hard to believe my baby is 18.

1999: the end of another decade ….. so much anticipation for the New Millennium ….. first year on the new computer system at work working out the bugs and kinks.

 

Always, Carol

 

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