The Next Chapter

Morning, this morning is two weeks since I said goodbye to my precious Alvin. I sat cradling his urn for awhile this morning because it is the closest that I can get to him. This is hard to do. I miss him so much. My heart hurts and I feel empty inside, the house feels empty without him. I can walk through the motions of what I need to do everyday but honestly my life sucks so much right now. He was my everything. Nothing will ever be the same again. He was my joy, my sorrow, my laughter, my breath, my company, my heart. I wish so hard that I could hear his little paws as he walked across the floor. I wish so hard that I could have him next to me again at bedtime. I wish so hard to sleep beside him on the sofa when he would move around until he had his head next to mine on the pillow. I wish so hard for things to have been different for him and that he could have been here with me longer. I miss him so much. There are no words to express how I am feeling at this moment. This is hard to do. The tears staining my face as they fall. The sun is shining which is good because two weeks ago it was dreary. There is a bit of a breeze. I held his urn close to my heart as I sat on the bench at the foot of my bed and starred out the window. That was one of his happy places to be sitting on the end of the bed looking out of the window at his world, our neighbourhood. I know that he would miss this. I remember years ago when I worked away from home pre Pandemic and when I would arrive home and open the door and he was not there to greet me. There would be a thud from upstairs and that would be Alvin jumping off the bed and then he would run down the stairs to greet me. First thing we would do as run to the back door so that he could go to the grass and pee. I cannot imagine having to hold that all day long but he did. They all do and that makes me sad. Poor babies. My poor Alvin. Then he was hungry and wanted to eat. So I would give him his supper and then we would go for a walk (weather permitting). Oh, how I miss those days. My life will never be the same that is for certain. He left a huge impression on my life and in my heart and for that I am truly thankful. Love you my buddy, my darling Alvin. Always and Forever……..

Today I am struggling as I live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, love, laughter, understanding, gratitude, focus, possibilities, coffee and forgiveness.

Always, Carol & Alvin (my forever Angel).

Second Half of the NEW YEAR

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday, September 2, 2020.

Raining through the night and earlier this morning but has stopped now.

Funny how that happens.

I missed watering my flowers on Monday night and then gave them a good drink last night.

Well they are well watered now.

Some of my flowers and plants are beginning to fade.

The nights are beginning to cool now.

I suppose it won’t be too long before I need to prepare for the next season.

Will check the long range forecast for frost.

I will leave everything as long as possible.

As long as the flowers are blooming I like to leave them and sometimes near the end they are beginning to look a bit less than perfection.


W for Wind.

Man oh man, have we been experiencing a lot of wind these days.

Seems like every year Edmonton gets more and more wind.

A nice breeze is fine but gale force is not.

Alvin and I have almost blown away on some of our walks and then sometimes we just stay home.


This is one of those mornings where for some reason I do not have a lot to say.

Fancy that.

Usually I start and don’t have time to write everything that I am thinking.

I almost never plan what I am going to write ahead of time.

Just sit down and start typing the things that come to my mind.

Sometimes they are silly and sometimes very serious.


I want to extend our sympathies to our neighbours on the passing of their beloved fur baby “Capone.”

He was a big guy and so sweet.

I remember when he was a puppy.

My how time flies.

We have lost so many of our fur baby friends and family this year.

Abi (Alvin’s girlfriend), Casey (long time family friend), and now Capone and our Mabel who was my brother and family’s girl.

Rest in Peace my darlings.

We shall miss you forever and keep you forever in our hearts and minds.


With kindness and respect for all,

I/We shall remain,

As Always, Carol & Alvin




Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Friday the 27th day of October, 2017.

Another gorgeous day on the way and even warmer tomorrow.

Happy Birthday to my friend “S” ….. she lives in Ontario.

We go back many years and have many stories.

Have a great day my friend.


Looks like me and the Alvin are puppy sitting Master Teddy tomorrow.

He is such a lively little guy.

Certainly will be a busy fun day.


I was considering giving Mr. Alvin a hair cut and bath but may rethink that …. not sure.

We will see how things go.


I hope that wherever you are and whatever you are doing that today is a great day for you.

Filled with hope, love, much laughter and fulfillment of a dream or two.

Be kind and considerate and also filled with generosity.

No matter who or what comes your way.

Today is the door that separates us from yesterday, and the window with glimmers of tomorrow.


Happy Friday Everyone.

Special Hello to:  my sister, oh my goodness seems like forever since I spoke to you.  We have to SKYPE soon.

Always, Carol & Alvin


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