COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Saturday, July 22, 2017 and it is the 19th day until my 60th Birthday.

The air coming in through my office window is cool as I write these words.

The sun is already up for the day as I have risen for the day, as well.

I would say that one of my favourite things to do is to write poetry.

I will share some of the poems that I have written over the years.

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“GREAT EXPECTATIONS”

To Windthorst I came late in the fall,

With great expectations — or so I recall,

I looked forward to seeing new faces in class,

And taking the subjects I knew I should pass.

My impressions are fixed now, it currently seems

That totally false was each of these dreams,

With all the boys, I’d thought it’d be heaven,

But it hasn’t worked out; so back to Glenavon.

The girls are prettier than I’d thought they would be;

Though none but a fool could prefer them to me!

(My vanity comes from the pressures of rhyme —

You know that I’m modest all of the time!)

My rhyme is near finished, my brainpower low,

My thoughts have diminished, and so I shall go.

Life, bring excitement!  Life, bring romance!

Life, bring me something!  Windthorst last chance!

Written as I entered Grade Twelve in Windthorst, Saskatchewan.

Grandma sold the farm in the summer/fall of 1974 and we moved to the Village of Windthorst.

I wrote some poetry for the school paper.

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“FROM DREAM TO REALITY”

I had a dream late last night,

Of sparkling white sandy beaches,

Palm trees swaying in a sweet scented breeze,

Of clear blue skies and water, clear blue,

Of monkeys, elephants and parrots, too.

When I awoke and looked all around,

It was a dream, so I had found.

The picture is somewhat sadly different.

My sandy beaches are cluttered with garbage.

The palm trees have been removed, replaced with malls.

The breeze smells bitter — terribly so,

The monkeys, elephants where did they go?

We have come too far, too fast,

The signs have been there,

But we did not see, due to our hungry greed

From horse drawn sleighs to gas powered cars,

From tin and glass to Styrofoam and plastic jars,

From all that technology we still didn’t learn

That we’re literally burning our planet — our Earth.

The time has come to join together,

Mothers, Fathers, Sons and Daughters,

If we learn to reduce, recycle and reuse

We can save our planet —

The gem in our universe.  Our Earth!

Written for Amanda’s school play at W.H. Ford School

By Carol Lewis on November 28th, 1990

This is so bizarre that I wrote this twenty years ago for my daughter’s school play.  It is even more prevalent today.

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“BEYOND THE SUNSET”

The sun melts into hues of gold and pink,

as the sky darkens.

A peaceful sigh, as she closes her eyes.

She sees the roses in her garden.

The fragrance soft but strong in the air.

She sees her children and theirs.

She feels her husband’s touch.

She remembers times gone by.

It has been a great life!

She is not afraid,

The time has come.

The Lord extends his hand,

And she follows him home.

Written by Carol Lewis on September 29/30, 1998 for my Grandma Stella.

I went to live with my paternal Grandmother when I was just 16 and she was 72.

We did well together for the most part considering the age difference.

I miss her and think of her often.

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“Dear Mom”,

Sitting here thinking back,

One moment ago,

Sometimes only days, then back a dozen years.

The memories flood on in,

There were happy times and sad,

Crazy wonderful and bad.

I think of all the voices of family and friends, chattering in my head.

Everyone has a special story, a thought for me to hear.

How hard it is to say that last good-bye.

I remember your laughter, your firmness and the way you spoke your mind.

The Love you shared with others, your charm, that wit, that mind!

We will always wonder, why your time with us was short.

But you gave us all love and understanding, you always believed in us.

Pointed us in the right direction.

Then quietly and quickly moved on,  to watch down over us – our Guardian Angel!

There will never be another “Jeannie”, another “Granny”, another Mom, another Friend like you.

Mom, there is no doubt in my mind that you were one of a kind!

You touched so many hearts that is evident by the stories I have heard,

and by the tears that have and will be shed.

Mom,

No one Loved You More

No one Loved You Better

We all Love You the Same.

Written by Carol Lewis (November 1993) to honour our  “Mother” who passed away in November of 1993.

I miss my Mom and think of her often.  When I think about how easy it is to communicate with family and friends who live at a distance, I am utterly amazed.  It would have been so great if back in 1993, and prior we could have sat down at the computer and SKYPED each other.  So if you are thinking about me or your Mom or your best friend, and they live at a distance, take advantage of the free download and start to SKYPE.  Between Facebook, E-mail, and SKYPE there is no reason to miss out on the days and years of our loved ones.  Post some photos.  Send some love.  Stay in contact.   To all my friends and family out there, I love you and think of each and every one of you each and every day.  Really I do.  I send my love and thoughts of good health and abundance.  Take care everyone…..

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“IF I HAD KNOWN”

Looking at photos of us when we were kids.

It seems like only yesterday,

but it was a lifetime ago.

Things have changed.

We were five now we’re four.

How I long for those days.

When we were all together.

When playing school, all sitting in a row … I’d be the teacher…

Running about the yard playing in a nearby slough looking for tadpoles …

Playing in the dirt ….

Imagining driving to far off places in that old black car, and eating Mom’s homemade french fries and pumpkin pie.

Playing hide and seek and watching Disney on Sundays.

Was what we did, when we were just kids.

Now we’re grown,

Time has past.

If only I had known,

We would be four and not five.

I would have taken your hand.

I would have told you how much I loved you every day.

I would have loved you better.

I would have visited you more often.

I should have tried.

I would have known your pain.

I would have understood.

I would have known your favourite song.

I would have known your favourite colour.

I would have known you better.

Now we’re four and it’s too late

For me to take your hand.

To share your pain, and to comfort you.

I wished that I had knew you better.

Between the pain and the laughter.

You were a man, and I remember the boy

The little boy with a zest for life.

The little boy that always seemed to find a way ….. now that’s our secret….

That irresistible little guy that made me smile.

The little boy with such a big heart.

That much I did know when the boy became the man.

I feel that I let you down, but it is too late

I wished that I knew your favourite song.

Or what you made you cry late at night.

Why the time passed so fast.

Now we’re four instead of five

What did you think?  Your thoughts?

I wished that I knew.

If I had, I had only known  the man, not just the boy.

Written by Carol Yvonne Lewis, January 8th, 2010

I miss my brother …… somedays it feels like only yesterday that we were saying good-bye and others it feels like an eternity.  Often times we take for granted that our siblings will live forever and most certainly if they are younger than we are, longer.  Reach out ….. say hello …… even if you cannot physically seem them ….. phone them, text them, email them, live chat, SKYPE with …… do not miss out on an opportunity.  

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Always, Carol

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Monday, July 17, 2017 and it is the 24th day until my 60th Birthday.

I will say that picking out a memory from each of my almost 60 years is not easy.

2000: Came in without most of the problems that were forecasted regarding the computers, which was a huge relief.

2001:  ???

2002:  My beloved daughter moves to Edmonton, Alberta and two days later I go on a vacation to the U.S. with a friend.  It was perfect timing so I would be moping around the apartment missing my girl.  Still missed her but was not at home to be reminded every moment.  Visited Las Vegas and area and went to San Diego and the day trip to Mexico (the crossing was out of a movie and not a good thing). A close family friend’s daughter had first of her three children.

2003: My first great niece was born ….. such a cutie pie.

2004: ????

2005: My first born great nephew and the apply of his “Anta’s eye.”

2006:  ????

2007:  Elton John concert?  or was it 2006?  Regardless of when it was amazing.

2008:  My first born nephew marries, I retired from working at same company for 30 years and my daughter marries all within a couple of months.  Attend Celine Dion Concert in Edmonton.

2009: Buy my first house, 1/2 duplex in Edmonton close to my daughter and son-in-law and grand-pups and move to Edmonton at end of March.  My beloved J passes.

2010:  Enjoying semi-retirement.  Back to Regina for a visit with my girl.

I may have to locate my daily journals to find out what was going on in 2001, 2004 and 2006.

Obviously, I do not remember anything specific.

YIKES.

 

Always, Carol

 

 

 

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Sunday, July 16, 2017 and it is the 25th day until my 60th Birthday.

OMG, getting closer to only three weeks till the big day and even less until my sister arrives.

I cannot wait.

Seems like forever since I wrapped my arms around here and that we giggled till our tummies hurt.

Better than going to some foreign country or to some tropical beach spending time with my sister, my daughter and my brother.

This will be a vacation to remember for sure.

Time to get things in order in the house, thankfully the basement is done although really it was in order.

Make up the menu for the company.

Make up the guest room just in time for the company.

Freshly washed sheets, a must.

Oh I cannot wait.

We do not see each other more than once a year but when we do we make up for it.

Time well spent.

I am so excited to have two whole weeks off from work.

The first time that I have taken 10 whole days off in a row in the almost 6 years that I have worked there.

Very exciting.

 

1998:  a big year.  My daughter graduated from High School with Honours, Started University of Regina that September in the Arts Program majoring in Film.  Hard to believe my baby is 18.

1999: the end of another decade ….. so much anticipation for the New Millennium ….. first year on the new computer system at work working out the bugs and kinks.

 

Always, Carol

 

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Thursday, July 13, 2017 and it is the 28th day until my 60th Birthday.

Okay back to memories ….. this may take some doing.

I think I was at 1967?

1967: Having my birthday party at the lake with cousins, roasting hot dogs over a fire and a homemade birthday cake.

1968: My family packed up the station wagon and drove to McAllen, Texas where we rented a house and spent the winter.

1969: Baling hay in the summer with my sister and pulling weeds in our HUGE garden.

1970: A bright pink jersey peasant style dress, and my first dance at school.  I can still hear the music in my head and see everyone lining the walls swaying to the tunes.

1971:  Moved from the farm in Saskatchewan to British Columbia.  Some of the saddest days of my life.  Moving away from my best friend. High School…. Picked berries with my Mom & Sister for the summer.

1972:  Moved to Alberta, another new High School in another province.

1973:  My Grandpa died in a farming accident and I moved back to Saskatchewan to live with my Grandmother (age 16).

1974:  Moved from the farm into neighbouring small town (Saskatchewan).  Changing schools yet again.

1975:  First summer after High School Graduation and then started first real paying job with SEARS in Regina.

1976:  Major life change ….. got engaged.

1977:  Another life change …. got married. Another life change – I became an Aunt for the first time…… my first born nephew…..he is the best.

 

Always, Carol

 

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 22nd day of June, 2016.

Last night it was pouring rain as I walked home from the bus stop.

I was pretty well soaked through and through by the time that I walked into the house.

It was coming down so hard and my poor little Alvin did not want to go out.

I could totally understand as there was loud booms of thunder and flashes of lightning.

I finally decided to just pick him up and grab the big big umbrella the one that would fit four people and make a run for it.

I carefully carried him across the deck and down the steps onto the grass.

Setting him down carefully and I tried calmly to coax him to go pee but not to avail.

So back into the house.

He ate his supper and I tried several times but nothing.

He just did not want to go outside and I could not blame him even though I knew his poor little bladder must be in overflow.

Finally the rain let up for a few minutes and we went and he was able to do his business.

It surely did pour last night.

Now for something completely different – just sharing from same date four years ago.

Always good to take a peek back so that you can see ahead.

Gotta go …..

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Good Morning and Welcome to the second day of summer Sunday, the 22nd day of June, 2014.

It is bright and sunny out this morning and the air has a slight coolness from the breeze, making it practically perfect.

This morning I was reminded as I gathered the jewellery that I always wear …. you know the rings and watch and then touched off with bracelets and a necklace, perhaps earrings.

One piece that I have worn every single day since it was given to me back in the summer of 1976 – a jade ring.

The ring is smooth and green ….. an ever ending circle of friendship.

It was a gift from my then best friend, Carolyn.

My forever friend, Carolyn, I might add.

We met in Grade Twelve.

She got married right after high school.

She had gone on a trip to the United States and had brought it back for me.

It is strange that I have no other piece of jewellery that I have consistently wore for that length of time.

This summer is is thirty-eight years since she gave it to me.

We were inseparable for a long-time and always kept in touch.

But somehow like many relationships go they slowly slip away.

I miss her.

We have and had such an amazing friendship that no matter how much time had elapsed we would just pick up from that point, like we had just spoke that day.

To my knowledge she still lives back in Regina and hopefully someday we will meet up again.

I am grateful for the jade ring a fond reminder of love and friendship.

Special Hello to: my friend Carolyn wherever you are ………

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day…..

Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 22nd day of February, 2015.

It is the day before my sister’s birthday.

She will be 56 this birthday.

That reminds me I will be 58 in August.

Where does the time go?

Have you ever sat down and recorded things that happened during your life thus far.

Perhaps each one …

Maybe by decade ….

It could be anything …. really ….

Perhaps the birth of a younger sibling.

Marriage.

First day of grade school.

The birth of your children.

Your first pet.

First adult book you read.

Graduating from college/university.

Death of a parent.

First time spoke in front of a crowd/group.

Your first winter vacation.

Your first job.

Major move from birthplace.

First flower you remember seeing and smelling.

There are so many things ….

Grab a notebook the next time you visit the neighbourhood discount store and start recording your life.

When you have a day or maybe a week where you are feeling like your life is blah and doesn’t mean anything …. grab your notebook and look at all that has happened thus far.

You will be pleasantly surprised.

It doesn’t matter if you are not a rocket scientist or inventor of the modern day computer.

It doesn’t matter that you do not have children.

It doesn’t matter if you did not graduate high school.

It doesn’t matter if you did not get married.

But what does matter …. and is most important.

Is this: that you were born,

that you took the time to smell that rose, and appreciate the wonder of nature;

that you adopted that wonderful dog who had been abused, neglected and unloved;

that you shovelled the sidewalk and driveway every winter for your elderly neighbours;

that you recycled cardboard, tins and such;

that you were kind to all those who surrounded you each day;

that you always gave your best.

See you have lived a great life ….. now write it down.

Have the best Sunday.

Happy birth – day …… you matter.

Special Hello to: each of us.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

 

Thought for the day……

Good Morning and Welcome to the second day of summer Sunday, the 22nd day of June, 2014.

It is bright and sunny out this morning and the air has a slight coolness from the breeze, making it practically perfect.

This morning I was reminded as I gathered the jewellery that I always wear …. you know the rings and watch and then touched off with bracelets and a necklace, perhaps earrings.

One piece that I have worn every single day since it was given to me back in the summer of 1976 – a jade ring.

The ring is smooth and green ….. an ever ending circle of friendship.

It was a gift from my then best friend, Carolyn.

My forever friend, Carolyn, I might add.

We met in Grade Twelve.

She got married right after high school.

She had gone on a trip to the United States and had brought it back for me.

It is strange that I have no other piece of jewellery that I have consistently wore for that length of time.

This summer is is thirty-eight years since she gave it to me.

We were inseparable for a long-time and always kept in touch.

But somehow like many relationships go they slowly slip away.

I miss her.

We have and had such an amazing friendship that no matter how much time had elapsed we would just pick up from that point, like we had just spoke that day.

To my knowledge she still lives back in Regina and hopefully someday we will meet up again.

I am grateful for the jade ring a fond reminder of love and friendship.

Special Hello to: my friend Carolyn wherever you are ………

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

 

“Great Expectations”

To Windthorst I came late in the fall,

With great expectations — or so I recall,

I looked forward to seeing new faces in class,

And taking the subjects I knew I should pass.

My impressions are fixed now, it currently seems

That totally false was each of these dreams,

With all the boys, I’d thought it’d be heaven,

But it hasn’t worked out; so back to Glenavon.

The girls are prettier than I’d thought they would be;

Though none but a fool could prefer them to me!

(My vanity comes from the pressures of rhyme —

You know that I’m modest all of the time!)

My rhyme is near finished, my brainpower low,

My thoughts have diminished, and so I shall go.

Life, bring excitement!  Life, bring romance!

Life, bring me something!  Windthorst last chance!

Written as I entered Grade Twelve in Windthorst, Saskatchewan.

Grandma sold the farm in the summer/fall of 1974 and we moved to the Village of Windthorst.

I wrote some poetry for the school paper.

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