Last Half 2022 – September

Good Morning ALL! How are you this morning? We are doing well. I am going to the office today but my neighbor and friend Sonja will come and check in on Mr. Alvin during the day. I am eternally grateful to have such great friends and neighbors.

I want to share a poem with you that I wrote as I started Grade 12 in the fall of 1974. Wow, that seems like an eternity ago. It was 48 years ago. YIKES. I am getting on in years, lol.

One FALL

To Windthorst I came late in the fall,

With great expectations – or so I recall.

I looked forward to seeing new faces in class,

And taking the subjects I knew I should pass.

……

My impressions are fixed now, it currently seems,

That totally false was each of these dreams.

With all the boys, I’d thought it’d be heaven,

But it hasn’t work out: so back to Glenavon.

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The girls are prettier than I’d thought they would be;

Though none but a fool would prefer them to me!

(My vanity comes from the pressures of rhyme –

You know that I’m modest all of the time)!

…..

My rhyme is near finished, my brain power low,

My thoughts have diminished, and so I shall go.

Life, bring excitement! Life, bring romance!

Life, bring me something! Windthorst last chance!

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Written as I entered Grade Twelve in Windthorst, Saskatchewan. Grandma sold the farm in the summer/fall of 1974 and we moved to the village of Windthorst.

Carol Mills in the year of 1974

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I found something else that I wrote for the school paper that same year.

Looks at our mascot!

He is depressed.

Cause we’ve just had exams and

Are not at our best.

……….

Life bring excitement

Life brings change

Life brings cold and arthritic pain.

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Well I can see that I was not in the most positive of states and that I was into boys.

Things have changed over the years, I am more positive and boys well men, I can take them or leave them. So much to do. Relationships!

Have a wonderful Friday.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, love, laughter, understanding, gratitude, focus, possibilities and coffee.

Always, Carol & Alvin

PS: to add some of my dearest girl friends are those I met in High School and my best friend of all time, I have know since we were toddler days. That is a long time. Shout out to Deanna and Carolyn.

Last Half 2022 – August

Good Morning ALL! What a beautiful morning. A bit of a cool breeze wafting in through the open office window. The sun is up. I think it will be a warm one. I heard a weird sound coming from the fireplace (gas) earlier – might have been a bird. Maybe was sitting on the chimney and the sound carried.

Yesterday we had two delightful walks, once before work in the morning and the other at 7:50 p.m. last night. One of my friends had popped by for a few minutes (dropping something off) and as she was leaving and we were chatting at the doorway, I realized how nice it was outside. Not too hot so I quickly got Mr. Alvin ready and we went for an evening stroll. For the second time in one day we went to our “happy place” which is my friend Pauline’s backyard. We did not go in but admired from afar.

OKAY, today is a special day. Today we celebrate two special friends birthdays. One friend I have known since high school and the other for about six years. I met Iris while walking with Alvin. Both incredible women. Happy 65th Birthday to my dear friend Carolyn. I had sent her a Birthday text a few minutes ago and as I was sending a birthday message to Iris, a phone call came in from Carolyn. OMG, so exciting. I am not sure why we do not call but we have been texting. I guess texting is the thing not that either of us “do the thing” per say. It was so good to hear her voice. She made my day, my month, my year. Sometimes we forget how great it is to hear someone’s actual voice. Happy Birthday Ladies. Wishing you both the best day and may the days to follow be filled with continued good health, much love and laughter and abundance. May we continue to stop the smell the roses.

This will be short as I am running late, go figure, lol. We have to get in a walk. Might be a bit shorter but we are going to walk.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, love, laughter, understanding, gratitude, focus, possibilities and coffee.

Always, Carol & Alvin

PS: I forgot to tell Carolyn that I have been wearing the jade ring that she gave me since 1976. She brought it back from a trip she had taken. I am so blessed to have such amazing longtime friends.

2021

Good Morning ALL! How are you today? Alvin and I are doing well. We have been up for awhile now and had a reasonably good sleep. Towels are drying and a bedspread, blanket are in the washer, also in the midst of cleaning the upstairs bathrooms and am dressed for the day. The top cover that I have on my bed covering the bedspread is one that I received as a wedding gift back in the summer of 1977 which makes it 44 years old in August or thereabouts. It is a pretty palette of pink, blue, purple and lime green. The material has become very fragile and there are many places where the material has separated and is fraying. The edging needs to be sewn back together in places. I think that will be my project for today. I do not wish to give up this beautiful blanket just yet. I seldom put it out but all of the blankets that I use to lay on the end of the bed were in the laundry so out it came to enjoy once again. Maybe a professional could restore it but to what cost? I will do my best. Not sure how many more times it will survive being washed. I hope many, as it reminds me of my final year as a teenager before hitting my 20’s. I turned 20 one week after I was married. When I think back to 1977, it seems like a hundred years ago. My eldest nephew was born February of 1977. Elvis died in 1977. I left the “innocence” of my teen years behind and I was not so innocent but not bad either. Somewhere in between for sure. The 70’s, wow so much happened to me over that decade. I started out living on the farm in Saskatchewan. Great Grandmother passed away. Moved to British Columbia. Went to five different schools in three different provinces for High School. Oh and we, my family moved to Alberta after British Columbia. My Grandpa died tragically in a combining accident. I fell in and out of love a couple of times (you know being a teenager). Moved from my family at age 16 to live with my Grandma back in Saskatchewan who was by herself on the farm after Grandpa died. In Grade 11, I joined my best friend from Elementary school days. That was a great time for me. Grandma and I moved from the farm into a neighbouring town where I took Grade 12, another new school. Meeting new people/new kids/new friends was my life from Grades 9-12. I was always the new kid and sometimes it worked out and other times it did not. I remember being teased for what I wore, for being new, and for whatever else they could dream of. I tried not to ever let it get me down. Everywhere I went I managed to find a friend. Also, I liked being different – that meant that I was unique. I was never one early on to follow what everyone else was doing. Although I did go through a period where I did feel the need to follow what my friends were doing at the time. That phase did not last long. I had several jobs in the 70’s. I worked at Alberta Government Telephones “AGT” for a summer when I was 16/17, also cleaned houses for Seniors and looked after children. Also worked at Sears after High School. When I was married we flew to the West Coast of the United States in a four seater airplane with friends (they owned the plane). It was one of the best experiences of my life as I love to fly and had always wished that I had gone for my pilot’s license. Sticking my toes in the Pacific Ocean was amazing and going to DISNEYLAND was something I had never thought about doing. Eating food that I had never even heard of was great. I also had a drink in a licensed establishment in Los Angeles as a 20 year old who was legally licensed to drink in Saskatchewan. Now that was another story and so funny. Definitely a highlight.

How did this post start out with a mention about a bedspread from 44 years ago. WOW. To finish the 70’s decade, I graduated in 1975. Married in 1977. I lost another Grandpa (1979). Friends were lost in the 70’s as well. To end the decade I was expecting my first and only child (happy day). I am quite certain that I likely forgot some very important items. My parents separated/divorced when I was in grade 12. That was huge. Cousins married. The 70’s were a time of joy and sadness for me. I always tried to land on the joy side. Burying oneself in grief and sadness does not help anyone ever. This is so strange everytime I think I am done, I think of something else. We survived a fire (my family and I). So much happened to me during those years. Likely could be said for most of us. But it is time to go and finish cleaning the bathrooms, Alvin has said that he does not clean toilets. Period. End of story. WOW, I said. Really, would be so nice if you helped out around here. LOL.

The sun is shining and quite possibly there are birds singing (would like to think so). Most of the snow has melted. We did have a few hours of coldness last night as the wind got up. Even a few snowflakes.

Wishing you all a Happy Sunday.

Continuing to live with kindness, respect, compassion and patience.

Always, Carol & Alvin

2021

Good Morning ALL. How are you doing today?

Happy St. Patrick’s Day today. I have Irish roots and am proudly wearing my “green” today.

Happy Birthday to my great niece for whom I missed her special day. Happy 18th Birthday Selena. I cannot believe that you are about to graduate High School. You were only a little girl a few months ago or so it seems.

Happy Birthday to my friend Terry W. back in Regina. You are a bright light and always so much fun to be around. Wishing you a great day.

Happy Wednesday to everyone who celebrates the middle of the week.

Good Morning Sunrise …. the sky is beginning to turn the most delightful colours as the sun rises in the morning sky.

Thank you to Teddy and Kobi for visiting with us yesterday ….. definitely brightened our day.

Thank you for the warmer temperatures. We are so enjoying them. The snow on our deck is quickly melting as well as the snow bank on the grass area. The snow on our front lawn on the northside of our home well that is quite another story. As I have said before it is spring across the street from our house and winter on our side. Oh well with the next couple of weeks temperatures soaring into the double digit plus numbers we are sure to see a huge dent in the snow banks for sure.

I am so excited to start planting flowers and arranging my patio/deck furniture and all the outdoor stuff. This summer I am going to paint my fence. A big job for sure.

Just looked through my photos for some green and found this one. Won’t be long now and we will be surrounded by green trees and grass. Alvin is in the foreground or at least part of him, lol.

Have a wonderful day.

Living with kindness, respect, compassion and patience.

Always, Carol & Alvin

2021

Good Morning ALL. How are you doing today? I am/we are well. Last night or rather this morning, first time up and downstairs was at 4:08 a.m., yay Mr. Alvin. Next time up when I set the alarm. Feels like I had a good sleep. I am most grateful. The night sky is just starting to show the morning sunrise as it begins to lighten on the horizon. My view from the office window facing southward.

News on the block. My kids bought a new car. So exciting for them. They brought it to show me on their way home from the dealership last night. It is a beauty.

Today is the 44th birthday of my eldest nephew. One of my high school classmates turns 64 today as well. It is a reminder that this is the year me and my graduating class turn 64. I cannot believe it. Does not seem real but then again on the other hand – my nephew just turned 44, so it does. Happy Birthday Nephew – Wishing you a wonderful day. He is away working up north and it has been minus 50 celsius. Now that’s cold. Sending you good wishes and warmth. Take care and be safe. To my friend Barb, Happy 64th Birthday. Wishing you a wonderful day.

As I look about my office, I see that my African Violet has a great many purple flowers. She is most beautiful with her deep purple blooms and rich green leaves. The smaller Spider Plants that I have brought up stairs are doing well. They seem to grow like nobody’s business no matter where they are placed. Easy peasy. My Geraniums downstairs are blooming with bright pink flowers. Love them. Poinsettias are doing well. The one from last year has some leaves that are turning red. So pretty with green and red leaves. I would say that my little garden in the kitchen and in office are bright and cheery and bring joy to my days. Always good to be surrounded by greenery with a pop of colour. Good for the air as well.

I can see the sky starting to turn oranges and pinks on the horizon and soon the sun shall be up and shining every so brightly.

Another cold day but by Friday it will be warming up. Which is a good thing as I have to make a run to the vet for supplies for the boy.

Well time to head on downstairs. The boy is standing staring at me from the hallway. He has a piercing look when he wants something.

I wish you a great Tuesday, be safe and warm and take care.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion and patience.

Always, Carol & Alvin

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Saturday, July 22, 2017 and it is the 19th day until my 60th Birthday.

The air coming in through my office window is cool as I write these words.

The sun is already up for the day as I have risen for the day, as well.

I would say that one of my favourite things to do is to write poetry.

I will share some of the poems that I have written over the years.

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“GREAT EXPECTATIONS”

To Windthorst I came late in the fall,

With great expectations — or so I recall,

I looked forward to seeing new faces in class,

And taking the subjects I knew I should pass.

My impressions are fixed now, it currently seems

That totally false was each of these dreams,

With all the boys, I’d thought it’d be heaven,

But it hasn’t worked out; so back to Glenavon.

The girls are prettier than I’d thought they would be;

Though none but a fool could prefer them to me!

(My vanity comes from the pressures of rhyme —

You know that I’m modest all of the time!)

My rhyme is near finished, my brainpower low,

My thoughts have diminished, and so I shall go.

Life, bring excitement!  Life, bring romance!

Life, bring me something!  Windthorst last chance!

Written as I entered Grade Twelve in Windthorst, Saskatchewan.

Grandma sold the farm in the summer/fall of 1974 and we moved to the Village of Windthorst.

I wrote some poetry for the school paper.

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“FROM DREAM TO REALITY”

I had a dream late last night,

Of sparkling white sandy beaches,

Palm trees swaying in a sweet scented breeze,

Of clear blue skies and water, clear blue,

Of monkeys, elephants and parrots, too.

When I awoke and looked all around,

It was a dream, so I had found.

The picture is somewhat sadly different.

My sandy beaches are cluttered with garbage.

The palm trees have been removed, replaced with malls.

The breeze smells bitter — terribly so,

The monkeys, elephants where did they go?

We have come too far, too fast,

The signs have been there,

But we did not see, due to our hungry greed

From horse drawn sleighs to gas powered cars,

From tin and glass to Styrofoam and plastic jars,

From all that technology we still didn’t learn

That we’re literally burning our planet — our Earth.

The time has come to join together,

Mothers, Fathers, Sons and Daughters,

If we learn to reduce, recycle and reuse

We can save our planet —

The gem in our universe.  Our Earth!

Written for Amanda’s school play at W.H. Ford School

By Carol Lewis on November 28th, 1990

This is so bizarre that I wrote this twenty years ago for my daughter’s school play.  It is even more prevalent today.

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“BEYOND THE SUNSET”

The sun melts into hues of gold and pink,

as the sky darkens.

A peaceful sigh, as she closes her eyes.

She sees the roses in her garden.

The fragrance soft but strong in the air.

She sees her children and theirs.

She feels her husband’s touch.

She remembers times gone by.

It has been a great life!

She is not afraid,

The time has come.

The Lord extends his hand,

And she follows him home.

Written by Carol Lewis on September 29/30, 1998 for my Grandma Stella.

I went to live with my paternal Grandmother when I was just 16 and she was 72.

We did well together for the most part considering the age difference.

I miss her and think of her often.

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“Dear Mom”,

Sitting here thinking back,

One moment ago,

Sometimes only days, then back a dozen years.

The memories flood on in,

There were happy times and sad,

Crazy wonderful and bad.

I think of all the voices of family and friends, chattering in my head.

Everyone has a special story, a thought for me to hear.

How hard it is to say that last good-bye.

I remember your laughter, your firmness and the way you spoke your mind.

The Love you shared with others, your charm, that wit, that mind!

We will always wonder, why your time with us was short.

But you gave us all love and understanding, you always believed in us.

Pointed us in the right direction.

Then quietly and quickly moved on,  to watch down over us – our Guardian Angel!

There will never be another “Jeannie”, another “Granny”, another Mom, another Friend like you.

Mom, there is no doubt in my mind that you were one of a kind!

You touched so many hearts that is evident by the stories I have heard,

and by the tears that have and will be shed.

Mom,

No one Loved You More

No one Loved You Better

We all Love You the Same.

Written by Carol Lewis (November 1993) to honour our  “Mother” who passed away in November of 1993.

I miss my Mom and think of her often.  When I think about how easy it is to communicate with family and friends who live at a distance, I am utterly amazed.  It would have been so great if back in 1993, and prior we could have sat down at the computer and SKYPED each other.  So if you are thinking about me or your Mom or your best friend, and they live at a distance, take advantage of the free download and start to SKYPE.  Between Facebook, E-mail, and SKYPE there is no reason to miss out on the days and years of our loved ones.  Post some photos.  Send some love.  Stay in contact.   To all my friends and family out there, I love you and think of each and every one of you each and every day.  Really I do.  I send my love and thoughts of good health and abundance.  Take care everyone…..

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“IF I HAD KNOWN”

Looking at photos of us when we were kids.

It seems like only yesterday,

but it was a lifetime ago.

Things have changed.

We were five now we’re four.

How I long for those days.

When we were all together.

When playing school, all sitting in a row … I’d be the teacher…

Running about the yard playing in a nearby slough looking for tadpoles …

Playing in the dirt ….

Imagining driving to far off places in that old black car, and eating Mom’s homemade french fries and pumpkin pie.

Playing hide and seek and watching Disney on Sundays.

Was what we did, when we were just kids.

Now we’re grown,

Time has past.

If only I had known,

We would be four and not five.

I would have taken your hand.

I would have told you how much I loved you every day.

I would have loved you better.

I would have visited you more often.

I should have tried.

I would have known your pain.

I would have understood.

I would have known your favourite song.

I would have known your favourite colour.

I would have known you better.

Now we’re four and it’s too late

For me to take your hand.

To share your pain, and to comfort you.

I wished that I had knew you better.

Between the pain and the laughter.

You were a man, and I remember the boy

The little boy with a zest for life.

The little boy that always seemed to find a way ….. now that’s our secret….

That irresistible little guy that made me smile.

The little boy with such a big heart.

That much I did know when the boy became the man.

I feel that I let you down, but it is too late

I wished that I knew your favourite song.

Or what you made you cry late at night.

Why the time passed so fast.

Now we’re four instead of five

What did you think?  Your thoughts?

I wished that I knew.

If I had, I had only known  the man, not just the boy.

Written by Carol Yvonne Lewis, January 8th, 2010

I miss my brother …… somedays it feels like only yesterday that we were saying good-bye and others it feels like an eternity.  Often times we take for granted that our siblings will live forever and most certainly if they are younger than we are, longer.  Reach out ….. say hello …… even if you cannot physically seem them ….. phone them, text them, email them, live chat, SKYPE with …… do not miss out on an opportunity.  

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Always, Carol

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Monday, July 17, 2017 and it is the 24th day until my 60th Birthday.

I will say that picking out a memory from each of my almost 60 years is not easy.

2000: Came in without most of the problems that were forecasted regarding the computers, which was a huge relief.

2001:  ???

2002:  My beloved daughter moves to Edmonton, Alberta and two days later I go on a vacation to the U.S. with a friend.  It was perfect timing so I would be moping around the apartment missing my girl.  Still missed her but was not at home to be reminded every moment.  Visited Las Vegas and area and went to San Diego and the day trip to Mexico (the crossing was out of a movie and not a good thing). A close family friend’s daughter had first of her three children.

2003: My first great niece was born ….. such a cutie pie.

2004: ????

2005: My first born great nephew and the apply of his “Anta’s eye.”

2006:  ????

2007:  Elton John concert?  or was it 2006?  Regardless of when it was amazing.

2008:  My first born nephew marries, I retired from working at same company for 30 years and my daughter marries all within a couple of months.  Attend Celine Dion Concert in Edmonton.

2009: Buy my first house, 1/2 duplex in Edmonton close to my daughter and son-in-law and grand-pups and move to Edmonton at end of March.  My beloved J passes.

2010:  Enjoying semi-retirement.  Back to Regina for a visit with my girl.

I may have to locate my daily journals to find out what was going on in 2001, 2004 and 2006.

Obviously, I do not remember anything specific.

YIKES.

 

Always, Carol

 

 

 

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Sunday, July 16, 2017 and it is the 25th day until my 60th Birthday.

OMG, getting closer to only three weeks till the big day and even less until my sister arrives.

I cannot wait.

Seems like forever since I wrapped my arms around here and that we giggled till our tummies hurt.

Better than going to some foreign country or to some tropical beach spending time with my sister, my daughter and my brother.

This will be a vacation to remember for sure.

Time to get things in order in the house, thankfully the basement is done although really it was in order.

Make up the menu for the company.

Make up the guest room just in time for the company.

Freshly washed sheets, a must.

Oh I cannot wait.

We do not see each other more than once a year but when we do we make up for it.

Time well spent.

I am so excited to have two whole weeks off from work.

The first time that I have taken 10 whole days off in a row in the almost 6 years that I have worked there.

Very exciting.

 

1998:  a big year.  My daughter graduated from High School with Honours, Started University of Regina that September in the Arts Program majoring in Film.  Hard to believe my baby is 18.

1999: the end of another decade ….. so much anticipation for the New Millennium ….. first year on the new computer system at work working out the bugs and kinks.

 

Always, Carol

 

COUNTDOWN: 60 Days to 60

Today is Thursday, July 13, 2017 and it is the 28th day until my 60th Birthday.

Okay back to memories ….. this may take some doing.

I think I was at 1967?

1967: Having my birthday party at the lake with cousins, roasting hot dogs over a fire and a homemade birthday cake.

1968: My family packed up the station wagon and drove to McAllen, Texas where we rented a house and spent the winter.

1969: Baling hay in the summer with my sister and pulling weeds in our HUGE garden.

1970: A bright pink jersey peasant style dress, and my first dance at school.  I can still hear the music in my head and see everyone lining the walls swaying to the tunes.

1971:  Moved from the farm in Saskatchewan to British Columbia.  Some of the saddest days of my life.  Moving away from my best friend. High School…. Picked berries with my Mom & Sister for the summer.

1972:  Moved to Alberta, another new High School in another province.

1973:  My Grandpa died in a farming accident and I moved back to Saskatchewan to live with my Grandmother (age 16).

1974:  Moved from the farm into neighbouring small town (Saskatchewan).  Changing schools yet again.

1975:  First summer after High School Graduation and then started first real paying job with SEARS in Regina.

1976:  Major life change ….. got engaged.

1977:  Another life change …. got married. Another life change – I became an Aunt for the first time…… my first born nephew…..he is the best.

 

Always, Carol

 

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 22nd day of June, 2016.

Last night it was pouring rain as I walked home from the bus stop.

I was pretty well soaked through and through by the time that I walked into the house.

It was coming down so hard and my poor little Alvin did not want to go out.

I could totally understand as there was loud booms of thunder and flashes of lightning.

I finally decided to just pick him up and grab the big big umbrella the one that would fit four people and make a run for it.

I carefully carried him across the deck and down the steps onto the grass.

Setting him down carefully and I tried calmly to coax him to go pee but not to avail.

So back into the house.

He ate his supper and I tried several times but nothing.

He just did not want to go outside and I could not blame him even though I knew his poor little bladder must be in overflow.

Finally the rain let up for a few minutes and we went and he was able to do his business.

It surely did pour last night.

Now for something completely different – just sharing from same date four years ago.

Always good to take a peek back so that you can see ahead.

Gotta go …..

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Good Morning and Welcome to the second day of summer Sunday, the 22nd day of June, 2014.

It is bright and sunny out this morning and the air has a slight coolness from the breeze, making it practically perfect.

This morning I was reminded as I gathered the jewellery that I always wear …. you know the rings and watch and then touched off with bracelets and a necklace, perhaps earrings.

One piece that I have worn every single day since it was given to me back in the summer of 1976 – a jade ring.

The ring is smooth and green ….. an ever ending circle of friendship.

It was a gift from my then best friend, Carolyn.

My forever friend, Carolyn, I might add.

We met in Grade Twelve.

She got married right after high school.

She had gone on a trip to the United States and had brought it back for me.

It is strange that I have no other piece of jewellery that I have consistently wore for that length of time.

This summer is is thirty-eight years since she gave it to me.

We were inseparable for a long-time and always kept in touch.

But somehow like many relationships go they slowly slip away.

I miss her.

We have and had such an amazing friendship that no matter how much time had elapsed we would just pick up from that point, like we had just spoke that day.

To my knowledge she still lives back in Regina and hopefully someday we will meet up again.

I am grateful for the jade ring a fond reminder of love and friendship.

Special Hello to: my friend Carolyn wherever you are ………

Always, Carol and Alvin

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