Thought for the day or perhaps a revelation ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 5th day of September, 2016.

Perhaps by now some of you may have noticed that I have not written on this blog since the last day of August.

My daughter noticed that I had not written on my blog for the first couple of days and asked if something was wrong?

I told her no.

But that was not one hundred percent accurate.

There are times in one’s life when the mere gravity of words and actions by those around you just makes you feel incompetent and makes you question

the things you do.

I am not saying it was a huge matter but it was enough to give me cause to pause.

Sometimes you just need to take a step back in order to go forward.

Or at the very least stop doing some of the things that you always do, and reflect.

Or sometimes it is just something you need to do for you.

It can be just as simple as that.

I just knew that I had to take a break, and that there was no way of explaining this to you.

I do apologize for that.

 

I had questions.

Was I really doing something that I truly loved or just doing something because I had been telling myself, and others for several decades

that “I am a writer.”

But was I?

Am I?

 

For as long as I can remember I loved books, I loved words. I loved the sounds of words.

They could take you near or far.

In my case it was the far that appealed to me the most.

I could imagine a new life, a different life.

I loved to read.

I loved to write.

Or perhaps it was the mere essence of the feeling that I got at the end of it all.

I do not know.

But questioning things ….. that is where I am at.

Can I write?

Sure I can.

But am I good enough that is another question.

Good enough compared to who, to what?

I had wanted to be a published author but at fifty-nine that honour still eludes me.

Perhaps there is a part of me that believes that I am not really good enough or smart enough to go the distance.

Short term projects; I can do and have done.

So this is part of the dilemma.

The other of the self-doubt is that I feel that I have worked very hard my whole life and somehow I feel unaccomplished.

But why?

Really, I should not.

I left my home of thirty years to start over in a new place.

I finally in my 50’s was able to buy my first house, and yes I have a mortgage.

After a lifetime of work I took a couple of years off for a mini retirement.

After which I found a job ( into my 50’s which is not easy these days ).

I adopted my first dog when in my 50’s.

I have made many many life choices and changes after the age of 50.

But perhaps the biggest thing of all is the fact that back home many of my friends are now settling into retirement or at least close.

Life is full of choices and we do the best that we can.

This was and is my choice for good or bad.

But sometimes we just would like things to have gone a different way.

 

I have tried to remain positive but sometimes that is just impossible.

So it is a combination of writing and life choices that brings me to this point.

I will continue to write not because I have to but because I want to.

 

Perhaps this does not truly or in full explain what is really in my heart but it will give you an idea of where I am at …..

Alvin in his cuteness, well he is Alvin and he just looks at me as if to say “Come on snap out of it.”

I say to him, “Yes dear one, I shall.”

 

Thank you for making the choice to read my blog.

I am so thankful for you.

Life evolves …..

 

Special Hello to: YOU

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thought for the day ……

Good Morning and Welcome to Thursday the 4th day of August, 2016.

Overcast but it looks like the sun is trying to burst through …. I hope so.

It has rained overnight as the deck is wet.

I did not hear it.

There be puppies coming to our house in a few minutes.

Elton and Casey are coming to spend the day with me and Alvin.

It will be great for Alvin to have some company and I love spending time with all the boys.

Hard to believe that it is Thursday …… where are my vacation days going?

Well I did accomplish a couple of things off my TO DO LIST.

Cleaned all of the bathroom fans.

Not that it is a terribly time consuming job but it is one that somehow always gets pushed to the bottom of the list.

I do have one HUGE job and that is digging up a strip of the front lawn.

Not especially looking forward to that but it will be fun to get my hands dirty.

I guess I will start that tomorrow as it would be nice to have it done before the end of the weekend and I am not sure how long it is going to take me.

 

Alvin is curled up on the end of our bed – that is his spot to wait for me when I am having a shower.

It is funny how he always is wherever I am when at home.

If I go outside he wants outside.

He makes me feel special.

Our four-legged friends have a way of doing that …..

 

Well just enough time to have breakfast before our company arrives.

As Elton cannot have banana anymore I like to make sure that we have breakfast before he arrives.

 

I hope that you have an awesome Thursday.

If you have a four-legged friend – keep them close.

Treat them with love, kindness and respect.

Somedays, no most days they are better than we are at being kind and compassionate and loving.

We can definitely learn from them.

 

Special Hello to: all my four-legged friends out there … thank you.

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Thursday the 19th day of May, 2016.

Overcast and a bit windy ….. is RAIN on the way?

Sure hope so even though I am hosting a garage sale tomorrow and Saturday.

It is in the actual garage so we will be dry as will our customers.

 

I was thinking this morning as I was readying myself for work ….. ” ***** ”

What would it be like to be the “tissue box designer.”

Can you imagine?

Coming up with different scenes to have placed on a box of tissue for all the world to see.

I would love to do that.

 

How many other jobs out there interest you?

Something out of your current box but something you could totally do if given the opportunity.

Something to ponder for the next day or so.

 

For me it is time to go to work.

Alas the sofa was calling my name over and over this morning ……

Thank goodness I have tomorrow off ….. thank goodness for vacation days.

 

Have a great day.

I would love to hear from you as to your ideas on different jobs outside the mainstream office worker, retail, doctor, lawyer, plumber kind of thing.

 

Special Hello to:  Elton, thank you for spending the day with Alvin.  He told me last night in his own way that he had missed you and was so happy to have had the day with just you.

We love you Sir Elton ……

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 28th day of October, 2015.

Dark crisp morning here in Edmonton.

On my way home from work last night, I ran into one of our friends “A” and her dog Abi (Alvin’s girlfriend).

They were just going out for a walk.

Abi was so excited to see me that I thought perhaps they should come in and after I fed Alvin we could join them for a walk.

Alvin at first was more excited to see me because he had to go outside and then he foodie that he is …. had to eat.

They had their time and then we went for a great walk together.

Alvin and Abi …. so cute together.

 

Four sleeps until the big day.

I can hardly wait.

On Sunday the 1st day of November my Christmas Tree is going up.

So excited.

I am grateful that I can put it up on my schedule ….. previously I was working at the store most Sundays.

Please do not get me wrong I am grateful to the “STORE” for hiring me when I needed a job ….

Not everyone is willing to take a chance on an employee that is over 50.

Funny thing you would think it would be the other way round …. more experience and all that stuff.

Anyway ….

Back to the TREE.

Sunday morning the Halloween decorations will come down as well as all of my other ornaments ….

Only Christmas things will be displayed.

I have so many beautiful items that I want them to be out front … and not in between a vase that doesn’t really match the Christmas theme.

I am going to check to see if my daughter will be joining me for the big event.

Hot chocolate and a Christmas movie playing in the background.

There is no better way to spend a Sunday ……

Exciting and relaxing all rolled up into one.

Just a few days until my favourite time of year.

Tree goes up.

House gets decorated inside and out.

Pull out my Christmas cards and start writing them so that they can be mailed before the end of November.

Decide on which photo of me and Alvin to get printed from our annual photo shoot.

I always send a photo with the card.

Each year the amount of cards I receive gets less and less.

I love writing each card to friends and family.

Sending a letter about our year and also a photo.

I think it is a way of people catching up with you when perhaps that is the only time of year that you communicate.

Not because you do not wish to but simply because life has a way of passing and there is no time.

Well almost time to get going to catch the bus.

Last night I brought my winter coats/jackets up from the closet in the basement.

Too cool in the morning for my light spring/summer jacket.

I hope that you have an amazing Wednesday.

Special Hello to: all you folks out there who will be putting their Christmas Trees up this weekend.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Saturday the 24th day of October, 2015.

A glorious morning.

Sky mainly clear.

Sun SHINING.

Coffee made.

Sipping on a mug.

Shared a cup already with my neighbour.

Changed begging on our bed.

Getting some things done.

Alvin has an appointment for his monthly pedicure and other personal items this morning at the Vet.

So we will do that once I have completed writing my blog and getting dressed.

Then it will be to the local grocery store and drugstore.

Time for Alvin to have hair cut and another bath.

In between there will be laundry and other household chores.

All the time enjoyed this glorious weather.

Oh how lucky we are to be having this weather near the end of October.

We are very grateful.

I am very grateful.

Each day it is all about being grateful for everything you have.

Even if you think you are stressed at your job there is always someone who would be happy to have that job.

Always be aware when speaking to others.

What is “terrible” to you might be “joyful” to others.

It is all relative.

I am reminded each day of all that surrounds me.

I learn something everyday.

Happy Happy Saturday ….

Wishing each and everyone a great weekend.

Thank you for sharing your time with me.

Special Hello to: my friends near and far ….. thank you.

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 19th day of October, 2015.

Happy 7th Wedding Anniversary to my daughter and son-in-law.

Alvin and I wish you all the best on this special day and may your life from this day forward be filled with nothing but perfect health, great joy, love, laughter and abundance.

Happy Anniversary ……

 

I was thinking this morning as today is the Federal Election for Canada.

Today we VOTE for our Prime Minister …. possibly a new party taking the helm in Canada.

The thought that popped into my head was this:  can you imagine going to bed on Sunday night in your own house like you always do; waking up the next morning to anxiously await your destiny.

Tuesday morning wake to “Mr. Prime Minister” or “Madam Prime Minister.”

How strange and exciting would that be.

One day you are a normal citizen walking into Starbucks for a coffee and the next day someone gets your coffee.

I like that ….. wouldn’t that be nice.

Well I cannot say that I would like to be Prime Minister …. it is a huge job.

In the beginning you are the STAR because the people voted you into the job.

Somewhere down the road things fall apart or things do not go the way “we” think they should (because we do not necessarily know the whole big picture) and then you are not the shining star.

Oh well, tough job.

I wish all of the candidates the best of luck …. win or lose.

To all my fellow Canadians who are of the age of majority – get out and VOTE.

Every vote is important.

 

Well almost time to go to work.

Catch that bus.

 

Special Hello: my sister and my great niece “S” …. so great to SKYPE last night….. have a great day.

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day…..

Good Morning and Welcome to Saturday the 25th day of April, 2015.

Well guess what happened overnight?

Can you guess?

Coloured rain?

IT SNOWED.

OH no!

Well on the good news front it pretty much melted as it reached the ground.

Just a light layer on the patio furniture, windshields on the neighbouring vehicles and on the grass.

I am so happy and grateful that the young man arrived at my door last night from Canadian Property STARS and aerated both the front and the back lawn.

Perfect timing.

It was kind of funny that two days ago I tossed around the idea of having another company come and possibly do the aeration and maybe power rake.

Last spring CPS did our lawn and it did not really do much but then again I did not water much as I was depending on the rain.

The young man who aerated the lawn last night did a much better job so I think we are going to have beautiful lush grass.

YAY.

Well the weekends are now my favourite days of the week.

I am at HOME.

I love being at HOME.

I am happiest at HOME.

Cleaning ….. writing ….. visiting …… WALKING with ALVIN……making jewellery……cooking and all of the things that I can do at home.

Home is my most favourite place on this EARTH.

I am happy to be at home with a long to do list for this Saturday.

But I can take my time ….. no rushing ….. I can stop for a coffee break …… stop and go for a walk ….. do things in whatever order I wish.

Oh how I am loving this Saturday.

Alvin is loving having me at home now – I can just tell.

I am loving being at home with him.

Tomorrow my beautiful daughter and grand-puppies are coming for brunch/breakfast which will be “pancakes” …. her favourite and then a trip to COSTCO.

YAY …. what a grand weekend.

Well time to go and grab that coffee and perhaps start the laundry.

I think that sounds fine.

Oh, I forgot to tell you that I was in the throes of making banana muffins when the young man arrived on my doorstep to do the lawn ….. he went home with some muffins.  He was so excited.  I was excited that he would want them.

It was funny ,I put four in a plastic container and when I saw all of the guys climbing into the van (with the trailer hauling the equipment), I asked if he would like more to share as he unzipped his backpack, and placed the container inside, he said “just for me” and smiled.

Nice young man.

GREAT NIGHT had by ALL.

Today is a great day and I hope that you are enjoying this Saturday as well.

No matter what the weather …. just do your thing.

Happy Saturday.

Thank you for reading my blog.

Special Hello to: my daughter and family ….. we miss you guys.  Still seems strange to wake up and no one else in the house except Alvin…..

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day….

Good Morning and Welcome to Friday the 24th day of April, 2015.

Well it is finally Friday …..

Are you thinking that as well?

I know that is like seeing the glass half empty inside of half full but it has been a long week.

Work at the office has been extremely busy and a bit on the stressful side.

But that is life and at the end of the day I am very grateful to have a good job in this economy.

Plans for the weekend?

Well, my “to do list” keeps growing every time I turn around.

So I will be busy.

Lawn care ….. laundry ….. cleaning bathrooms ….. dusting ….. floors …. you know that STUFF.

The best part of the weekend other than being at home with me Alvin is that Amanda and family are coming for brunch on Sunday and a visit.  YAY.

We are still adjusting to the quietness of the two of us.

I am sure it will take time to once again being just the two of us.

I am so grateful to be down to one job ….. two jobs is HARD WORK.

Not the work as much as the time ….

Time away from home …… when home everything has to be done in less time.

Always boils down to TIME.

Either too much or not enough.

I guess for most of us it is not enough.

Just have to reconfigure the best use of it.

So I am grateful to be home in the evenings and weekends.

Well here it is time to put on the finishing touches and catch that old bus to work.

I guess for the most part we are in a routine ….. for now.

I feel great ….

So happy that this day is Friday.

Special Hello to: my sister ……. it is time to SKYPE and catch up.

Thought for the day…….

Good Morning and Welcome to Saturday the 28th day of February, 2015.

Well it is a cold morning here in Edmonton.

Alvin has an appointment at the Vet this morning ( routine ).

Looks like I will be working Saturdays at the store in a couple of weeks.

So will have to get even more organized.

Thank goodness the kids are here ….. they help me so much.

Sorry this will be short as I am still wrapping my head around working Saturdays and getting reorganized…..

Oh well, you do what you have to do.

For now this will be my life working seven days a week.

I am so blessed in so many ways ….

I have the kids here to watch Alvin otherwise working two jobs would not be possible.

Time to go and eat and I definitely need coffee this morning.

Have a great Saturday.

Special Hello to: all those folks who work multiple jobs just trying to keep a roof over their heads and food on the table.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

Thought for the day …….

Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 8th day of February, 2015.

The sun is trying to shine this morning as I type/key these words.

The temperatures are once again beginning to warm after several cold ones.

All in all, our winter has been pretty great.

More warm days than cold.

Alvin is looking out the window checking out the neighbourhood.

Yesterday was a great day for the most part there were a couple of hours later in the afternoon that I could have done without but upon review there will always be something that happens.

Saturday morning we had a birthday party for one of my girl friends.

She was surprised and pleased.

We had a good visit with a trip to Costco after lunch.

The birthday girl was going so my daughter and I went along.

IT WAS BUSY.

Well here I am once again getting ready to go to work.

It kind of seems like I am always going to work ….. guess when you work 6 days a week that would be the case.

Oh well, it is an end to a means.

Well just enough time to finish my coffee before grabbing my coat.

I hope that you had an awesome weekend.

One thing I learned from someone who did not provide great customer service (it was not Costco) that I will continue to be the best that I can be.

Man when you are the customer and someone does not know their job …. yikes …. very stressful ….. depending on what their job is …..

I will know as much about what I do and sell that I possibly can.

Special Hello to: all those who work in the service industry …. customer service is so important.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

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