Story Line by line – November 20, 2013

Chapter Four:

November 1, 2013

Oh, how I loved that dress, and my mind flashes back to the junior high school dance where I first wore that beautiful pink and then I see my favourite books floating in mid air and my best friend “Dee” is there.

November 2, 2013

Alvin is staying very close as we begin to take in this enormous space, and our nervous energies feed each other, and I think of Alice in Wonderland, and  what shall our next move be as a bright purple balloon drifts by.

November 3, 2013

It is absolutely amazing the dress, my friend, balloons, family, old boyfriends, my house, Christmas, all of the things that I have loved during my life are appearing as Alvin and I make our way through it all.

November 4, 2013

I realize throughout all of the memories that my “four” are no longer walking with us and have disappeared.

November 5, 2013

“Where did they go?” I mutter aloud as if I half expect Alvin to answer and yet I know that we are “down the rabbit hole and things are about to get very interesting.”

November 6, 2013

What do I do – what can I do – nothing makes any sense – why would they do this – am I a guinea pig of sorts – are they watching us – who are they – are the questions that flood my mind as we just walk not knowing what will happen next.

November 7, 2013

As we walk further into this new world, I begin to notice that we in fact are not alone.

November 8, 2013

I do not see anyone but I can feel “eyes” watching us as we go deeper into this place, and then out of no where the thought of “YOU ARE NOT ALONE” comes to my mind; like something out of a movie.

November 9, 2013

Carefully I look about not wanting to miss a single thing, and carefully monitoring my thoughts with hopes that I can find out my location without disturbing my “hosts” when in the distance I see a dim light.

November 10, 2013

As I approach the location of the light it becomes brighter and brighter with only about 50 footsteps away I can begin to see what lies ahead of us.

November 11, 2013

Could I ever have imagined this in my wildest dreams, I think not, as the images begin to sharpen and come into focus.

November 12, 2013

I stop, we stop, and I rub my eyes in disbelief as I look ahead and see what appears to be a glass wall with images of ….. ME.

November 13, 2013

There, only a few feet in front of us are ME at different ages, different stages of my life with some I recognize, and other versions are new to me.

November 14, 2013

I am shaking in disbelief and wonder at what is ahead of me; am I dreaming?

November 15, 2013

Alvin has been quiet for awhile just sniffing around the space when suddenly he yanks hard on the leash pulling me off balance knocking me to the ground.

 November 16, 2013

As I lay there collecting my senses, Alvin rushes back to me tail wagging and licks my face; I giggle, looking up completely stunned, I see myself.

November 17, 2013

Wow, is that really me I think to myself and then utter a soft “Hello”  as the other “me” smiles back at me…… 

November 18, 2013

“Please tell me where I am,”  I say to her, and as I utter the words, she tells me without speaking that I am wherever I want to be.

November 19, 2013

Okay, I think let me give this a try as my mind unleashes the imagination that has been locked up as of late and before I could say anything we are curled up on a oversized leather sofa in front of a fireplace looking out of an enormous window to a breathtaking view of the mountains which are covered with snow; my heart leaps with excitement.

November 20, 2013

I had this dream when I won the lottery, and our family spent Christmas in this huge log cabin celebrating and being together it was amazing … oh, I feel so good.

Thought for the day……

I was going through my 3000 + emails in my hotmail mailbox this morning,  and was re-reading comments from my friends and family about my BLOG, some about Facebook and some just life.  For some reason, I tend to think of emails as letters, and have a hard time deleting them.  So I made some folders and “saved” the important ones.  The others I deleted.  I only got through about  maybe 300.  It is a big job.  Being a sentimentalist is a FULL TIME job.  Really it is.  As I read all of the kind words and stories that were brought on by the stories on my blog – I realized that “I AM TRULY THE MOST BLESSED PERSON ON THE PLANET”.   When someone tells you that your words brings tears to their eyes or a smile to their face or laughter to their soul, you know that you are truly blessed.  The night before last I was having a “small pity party” …. for one.  Unfortunately Alvin had to listen to the rants and raves and tears of a “semi depressed woman”.   But I am pleased to report that it only lasted for a short time.  It happened just when I went to bed.  You know when the house is quiet (because I forgot to turn on the dishwasher) and the furnace had not cut in just yet ….. anyway it happens.  All is well – great in fact.  I am back on track.  Just wanted to share that with you.  To prove that I am human, too.  We all are.  If you are extra blessed, and have a companion that speaks your language (not Alvin, he speaks dog and I have yet too figure it all out, LOL) you can bounce things off that person (I do not mean, like a vase or anything) but your thoughts and feelings.  I have Alvin in bed beside me at night and although I love him to pieces – he has not figured out how to articulate “it will be okay, Mama so please just go to sleep” ……  He is pretty smart so perhaps one day he will.  Okay, I got off track here.

The thought for this day is really that if you are surrounded by friends and family whether they are down the street or a province away …… you are not alone.  There is email, Facebook, Skype and the good old reliable “telephone” so no excuses not to reach out.  Even if it is 10:00 at night – if you need someone – remember to call.

Have a great great great day EVERYONE.  You are all so important to me.  I shall meet you in my dreams.  We will hook up at the BIG log cabin in the mountains – in front of a roaring fireplace – laughter filling the room and we shall all be sipping on hot cocoa (or baileys) as we gaze out of the wall sized windows onto the most incredible scenery in the world.  So until then, I am going for a cup of coffee.  As I sit on the sofa sipping on my coffee, I shall gaze out my living room windows to the street where the snow banks are higher than the rooftop of most of the cars that are parked across the street from my house…..and I shall think ……. isn’t life GRAND.

Love Always, Carol

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