COUNTDOWN: 60 days to 60

Today is Saturday June 17, 2017 and it is the 54 day until my 60th Birthday.

Crazy that the days are passing so quickly.

This writing has helped to gain perspective on a few things, and to give me extra purpose in the days and years ahead.

My family and I have had I would say an odd relationship.

Not bad but odd.

I am the eldest child of five.

We lost one brother several years ago.

We, remaining four are two girls and two boys.

I am closer to my sister because I have been around her more than my brothers, know her better, and because we are girls.

Part of the reason for this was I left home when I was sixteen years old.

This was not my choice.

I was always their guide and protector and it hurt me a lot to leave them.

My paternal grandfather had died in a farming accident back “home” and my Dad decided it would be a good idea for me to go and live with my Grandmother.

I was sixteen and she was 72.

I had always loved my Gran and was close to her but the idea of leaving my siblings behind scared me a great deal.

My youngest brother was 8, the other boys were 10 and 11; my sister was 14 when I left home.

I would say that this was the hardest thing that I have ever had to do.

Leaving my babies behind – being the eldest I was always responsible for them and they really did feel like my children.

So as I said, we have an odd relationship.

My sister and I are super close.

The boys feel like my children – most especially the youngest one.

I think it was hard for them, too.

We love each other very much.

I always felt bad that I missed out knowing them better in those years, and then as teenagers.

It also has had an effect on every conversation and get together over the years.

Whenever they spoke of many things – I was not there, and could not be connected to that memory, and that always hurt.

I did not feel included in a way.  Not that it was their fault as it certainly was not the case.

Now that is not to say that we did not see each other during those years we certainly did but not on a day to day basis.

My very core hurt when my middle brother passed away …..

Everyone has something in their life that throws their life into the fire pit.

So family is important to me.

I may not see my “babies” on a regular basis but they are engrained in my very being and with me everyday.

My Mom always treated me as a younger sister and even referred to me, as such.

My Dad well, despite his shortcomings, I loved him.

Families are not all the same.

You do the best that you can.

I am excited for my birthday as my sister and younger brother are coming to stay with me.

So excited to spend time with them.

Your family is your family.

All you can do is the best you can do …..

I am blessed to be a part of this family.

 

Always, Carol

 

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 23rd day of January, 2017.

Another Monday morning here in Edmonton.

Forecast is for sunny skies today.

When Alvin and I went for a walk in the late afternoon we saw a Mother and Daughter taking photos in the park near our house.

In the entrance to the park there is an area that is up on a small hill looking down to the three man-made ponds/lakes.

Of course the water is frozen over.

They were taking of them of each other but with the magnificent white background.

You see yesterday the sky was overcast in white (looked like a giant snowbank).

There was fog in the air.

The trees and plants were covered in hoar frost.

The ground was covered in snow.

So a complete white backdrop.

Alvin and I were in red and black and would have made a great photo with the difference in colour.

So now I will just have that memory.

Perhaps there will be another chance to snap up another photo in the near future.

It was absolutely breathtaking.

Memo to self …. keep that frame in your mind.

 

Well here we go again …. time to leave for work.

Time zips by.

Have an awesome Monday.

Special Hello to: all those people who are away on vacation …. hope you are enjoying your time away from home.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

 

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Good Morning and Welcome to Tuesday the 17th day of January, 2017.

Another gorgeous plus temperature day in the hood ….. Edmonton.

We have been loving our walks and it is so nice to be able to get out for a leisurely walk with my boy.

I love looking back and checking on temperatures and what was I doing on this day.

So here is the memory for this day in 2012.

Happy Tuesday Everyone.

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Happy Tuesday, January 17th, 2012 ……

On this “cold” winter’s morn …… I hope that you are toasty warm.

I always get such a kick out of my dog Alvin.

We have this morning ritual.

As I have shared before he now thinks that he is a lap dog.

Which is okay by me.

But anyway back to this morning.

Most mornings when I go to pick him up …. he walks around for a few seconds before letting me pick him up.

This morning he stood still waiting for me.

Then once up on my lap.

He takes a few moments to stand in one spot and look around …..

He usually turns almost all the way around before he settles down in my lap.  Looking about the room.

(He especially took a long hard look at the bowl of bananas sitting in the middle of the table.  LOL.  He loves bananas, and has a bit every morning with me.)

But it is how he does it that is so darn cute.

He very gingerly steps one paw at a time … ever so carefully….

I love my Alvin with all of his little quirks … he always puts a smile upon my face.

Like now he is lying on the hall floor and was looking at me …. then he sighs and turns around.

I sure would love to know what he is thinking…..

But it is all of the little rituals, the things that we share …. that makes our relationship special.

The belly rubs at the top of the stairs each night after his supper ….

Playing fetch …. him dragging me along our walk … (not all of the time….)

Always remember it is the little things that make life great ….

I have a great life and I hope that you have a great one, as well.

Special Hello to: my cousin Janice who continues to inspire me on a daily basis,  and I think of her always …..

Always, Carol

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Special Hello to: my cousin Janice …. my lifelong friend.

Always, Carol and Alvin

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Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 8th day of January, 2017.

Just saw a magpie (bird) fly by my office window.

The sky remains overcast with the morning cloud cover but in gapes I can see pure blue sunny sky.

It is quiet in the house.

Alvin is laying in the hallway waiting for me to come downstairs and start our day.

We were up several hours earlier so that he could go outside and have his breakfast, of course.

But then I felt it was too early to rise so back to bed (not the sofa this time).

Last night my sleep was filled with many dreams.

Unfortunately I do not remember them.

We have had a good weekend.

Yesterday my daughter and our newest addition came to visit before and after Aspen’s Doctor visit.

I love having them over.

Aspen tried her best to induce Alvin to play but he just could not find his way yet.

He will.

We feel as we watch interact that they will one day soon.

One of those things ….. they just need to spend more time together.

Alvin is not a puppy any longer so things sometimes take longer.

One of those “age” things ….. which I can attest to.

Baby Milo has already figured things out but then they are with each hour 24 hours each day.

Aspen is such a sweet creature, and I am so happy that she has joined our family.

We love her and I am grateful that she found her way to us at the most perfect of times.

She brings a loving, calm, peaceful presence with her.

She is a YING to Milo’s YANG.

They balance each other.

She will continue to teach him good things.

He is definitely still a puppy and she has taken the mother role.

We do miss our Elton and Miss Penny, and they will forever be in our hearts and minds.

 

As time passes on the younger ones will take over most of our everyday thoughts.

But always our beloved Elton and Penny will be in our hearts.

There is room for each one in our hearts for all time.

To all those who have lost a loved one recently whether two-legged or four the grieving process is different.

Take your time, remember them, and always keep them in your hearts as a memory for all-time.

To Sundays a day to reflect and perhaps relax before heading to the week ahead.

Special Hello to: my sister, thank you.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

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Good Morning and Welcome to Tuesday the 24th day of May, 2016.

Overcast but has stopped raining for now.

No rain overnight.

GREEN GREEN EVERYWHERE.

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I always find it funny not necessarily ha ha funny but perhaps strange funny to look back in time on my blog and see what I was doing on this DATE last year or two years ago.

I had a very busy weekend and it was HOT unlike this past weekend.

Always good to see what was going on a year ago or two it can help with your current mind set.

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Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 24th day of May, 2015.

It is a beautiful morning here in Edmonton, sun shining and a cool breeze masking the heat.

Yesterday felt like a July day ….. HOT.

Weather is a funny thing not funny ha ha but strange.

This morning is what I deem as perfection.

It is warm but the breeze keeps it comfortable to be out and about.

Great for walking.

But alas, Mr. Alvin is on his sleepover at his sister’s house.

His first one at their new place.

I am excited to hear all about it.

While he was away and the reason for his sleepover the furnace was cleaned.

Two of the nicest young men did the job.

Funny though they both told me different sizes for the furnace filter ( I already know which one ).

Perhaps it was the hot day that messed with their memory.

Once they left I got busy …. it was close to 4 p.m. but better late than ever.

I dug out three shrubs from the front “flower bed” ……

It took some work and at one point I was thinking it would have been nice to have had some help.

But I kept at it and got them out.

Got most of the dirt from the roots and then as the shrubs lay on the lawn …..

Now what?

One was quite heavy and with branches how am I going to dispose of them.

Aha, I thought ….. get those big stretchy black garbage bags …..

I managed to squeeze each one into their own bag.

Then lugged them to the back …. up the steps and onto the deck and up more steps and into the garage.

It took me almost one hour to get the shrubs out but I must tell you, I felt like a million dollars.

I did it all by myself …… I am strong and not reliant on someone else.

It was a good thing.

Then after that I raked and moved the dirt around in the now naked flower bed.

Also the neighbour behind is building a huge garage and has a big pile of top soil so I decided to ask him if I would be able to use some to top up my front flower bed.  He kindly said “yes.”

Then I had to find something to put the dirt into …. I found a ten gallon pail in my garage.

Now let me you a pail full of dirt is not light.

But I hauled five of them from his yard across the back alley into my garage down both sets of steps on my deck across the path between me and my neighbour’s to the front flower bed.

What a great workout.

I do believe that going to bootcamp helped me to complete this task.

I definitely could feel my core and arms doing what they were supposed to ….

Here are some photos:  furnace cleaners and the flower bed ….. forgot to take before photos !!

Was so grateful to have my kids shovels and garden tools to use….

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Now all I need is a couple of bags of potting soil to top it up and then some flowers.

YAY ….. I did it.

Well time for breakfast and coffee…

Happy Sunday and always remember “do not sell yourself short.”

You are stronger than you think.

You are better than you think.

You are more resourceful than you think.

You can do anything.

Special Hello to: all the single women in the world……

Always, Carol and Alvin

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 24th day of April, 2016.

We finally received some moisture via rain and wet snow.

The rain started late yesterday afternoon and then turn to wet snow just as we were going to bed.

However; this morning there is only a skiff of snow laying on the deck and on the lawn and on our rooftops.

You can almost hear the grass saying “thank you.”

 

This afternoon I am having a Steeped Tea party at my house.

One of my neighbours has booked a party and will be my hostess.

She is in the midst of selling her house so it is easier for the party to be here.

Easy for her and easier for me.

 

Yesterday my daughter, Sir Elton and my son-in-law came for a visit.

We worked on the computer for a bit as I am having some computer issues.

Nothing like paying attention to updates and stuff wouldn’t cure.

I need to go through my 28,180 photos and move them to a secure location.

There are likely quite a bunch that I can delete as well.

We also went for a walk to the nearby park where we snapped some photos.

Photos of my daughter, son-in-law and their Elton and then ones of me and Elton and Alvin.

We made sure that we had some good shots.

 

My neighbour and her friend just popped by for a mug of coffee.

I make coffee and we share it on Saturdays and Sundays.

We have a nice visit and then everyone gets on with the day.

 

Well time to get this show on the road.

I hope that you have a great day.

Special Hello to:  my Elton – everything will be fine.

Always, Carol and Alvin

 

 

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Good Morning and Welcome to Thursday the 18th day of February, 2016.

Wow, here we go ….. more than halfway through the Heart month.

Valentine’s Day is a recent memory.

I have completed my route canvassing for the Heart and Stroke.

March is just around the corner.

I love March because my daughter was born in that month.

March for me marks the beginning of spring ….

Although this year February feels more like spring.

The ice is melting on our street in the neighbourhood which is great.

The forecast is for snow so less ice underneath is always a good thing.

Today I was just thinking that sometimes you just have to let go ….

There are some things that come up in your day to day life, and although you would like to change them – they are just not worth the fight …. the energy.

So life carries on …..

Put it out of your mind and get back to living life without that crap.

 

I have not seen a bunny as of late …. wondering if they are starting to turn brown.

I know that some of the birds were confused with this weather.

I guess even Mother Nature gets things mixed up.

After all she is getting to be of an age …. like me …. only older … much but she is so graceful …..

Sometimes when I look around at the young stuff that surrounds me I do feel incredibly not with it and old.

Other times I feel young and alive and “with it.”

I guess that is life ….. do the best that you can in every moment and for the ones that lack your best ….. well there has to be a few of those around to keep things “interesting.”

 

Okay almost time to get this show on the road.

I seem to say that several times in the morning.

I guess I am the “show.”

Pretty funny …. don’t you think?

 

I am grateful for me Alvin, my daughter, my son-in-law, my grand-puppies, my family and friends, for my home, to be employed and to be healthy.

All the basics are covered ….. so life is good.

Have a great Thursday ….

& oh, today is payday so that is always a good day.

 

Special Hello to: my sister back in Regina ……and to my brothers in Alberta.

Always, Carol and Alvin

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Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 27th day of January, 2016.

It was raining here in Edmonton yesterday afternoon and well into the evening.

I would have thought with the warmth on my walk home from the bus stop that the sidewalks would have been okay but they were not.

They were so icy ….. so I walked on the street.

It was a slow careful walk home.

My sidewalk which was free from snow was covered with ice and I had to creep up the side walking partially in the snow that covers the lawn …. just to stay upright.

Needless to say I am not really looking forward to the walk to the bus this morning.

Careful and slow.

That will be the name of the game.

I will be leaving home a few minutes early ……

 

Also Mr. Alvin was wide awake this morning and ready to get up.

I am not quite sure what was with him and I only managed to keep him in bed until 4:40 a.m. ….. yikes.

Funny how that last few minutes in bed means so much ….

Anyway we were up and now I am almost ready at not even 6:00 a.m. …… YAY for ME.

 

My tea order arrived yesterday.

So all sorted …. I need to get it delivered.

All of the orders except for one go to my office.

So I will get it there …. just like the Post Man through rain or snow of fear of sleet …. something like that.

I think a sense of humour will be high on the list this morning.

 

Something tells me that I should have bought through ice cleat things …. you strap them to your boots.

Oh well ….. I will walk on “water” this morning ….. ER, I mean ICE.

What an odd January …. should be minus something not plus.

Not complaining just concerned.

 

Well here we go again another month almost finish never to appear again.

It is funny I barely remember last January and that was only one year ago.

Does that happen to you?

The time seems to evaporate and only extreme good and bad seem to remain in our memory.

 

Well I guess I might as well get this show on the road.

I am nervous … I will admit.

But I will get there ….. the bus will arrive and I will be at work.

 

Special Hello to:  all my friends and family and people of Edmonton tread carefully this morning.

Always, Carol and Alvin

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Good Morning and Welcome to Friday the 1st day of January, 2016.

A New Year.

Alvin and I managed to stay up until Midnight ….

 

The sun is shining brightly in the sky …

 

 

This morning I am reminded of all the dear souls two-legged and four-legged that we lost in 2015.

Just received a call that …

Yesterday …. our friend “KOA” has left us.

The big yellow dog that would visit my neighbour.

Rest in peace KOA … we know she is in a better place and we wrap our arms around her Mom “K” who misses her so much.

We have been blessed to know, to have learned and to have been in their lives.

 

Today remember …. turn on the photos in your memory and watch their stories.

Remember all of the joyful times you spent together.

 

Take care …..

 

Special Hello to: everyone who has lost someone ….. we miss them, too.

Always, Carol and Alvin

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Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 14th day of December, 2015.

Eleven days until Christmas Eve.

Alvin and I had a great Sunday …. the perfect extension to Saturday.

I put the finishing touches on some things around the house, wrapped gifts for work exchange and gifts for my kids.

We went to deliver Christmas cards and were invited into for a “cup of cheer” at one house.

I love going to this neighbour’s home as she is older and we always and I mean always have great conversations.

Her memory is sharp as a whip and she tells me things that I either did not know or have long since forgotten.

She loves Alvin almost as much as I do and he loves going to her house.

Not having anything to do with the “treats” that she lovingly prepares for him.

We visited for a few minutes at another neighbour and friend’s before heading home through all of the snow.

Upon arriving at home we found two young men likely in their twenties.

Literally standing in front of our house.

One had a cell phone and the other a snow shovel.

Odd combination, I thought as I did not recognize them.

I soon found out what was going on.

They were taking a FB (Facebook) Challenge to see if they could get two people out of five to give them $10.00 for shovelling their walks / driveways.

Well I was feeling in the festive mood having nothing to do with the double my friend had poured me earlier …. oh no.

More to do with the fact that I just figured that the $10.00 I had in my wallet would be money well spent to have all of that shovelling done ….

I do not mind shovelling but we have been shovelling every day…..

So they shovelled the front (including the other half of the duplex), my deck which is big and the driveway.

In the end I met two more of my neighbours ….. heard a bit of their stories …. and the shovelling was done.

Once finished I went into the house and started supper.

I figured things were okay as Mr. Alvin seemed to like them just fine and they liked him, too.

I hope that they found one more house in the time period allotted which was a total of 40 minutes.

Well guess I had better get this show on the road.

I also SKYPED with my sister and my great niece.

It was nice to catch up face to face.

It reminded me of when I was a little girl and dreamed of the days that we could speak and see the person you were talking with ….

I had the idea …. likely not first but I did have it when I was a young girl.  That was a long time ago …….

Happy Monday.

Do something today that you have never done before …… try something new.

 

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