The Next Chapter

Good Morning ALL! I hope that this finds you well. Yesterday was definitely different. First day going to work without Alvin in the house. Leaving the house felt strange as I said to him – I love you Alvin and I will see you after work, habit. The house was dark as I turned the key in the lock. As I walked to the car, I turned to the living room windows where I had always waved to Alvin who would be sitting on the sofa looking out watching me as I left for work. When I got into the car, Michelle was crying as she remembered how he would look out the window at me as I was leaving. We had some tears on the way to work. Oh my boy, how I miss you. The continuing saga at the office was a temporary reprieve from my new life. I thought of him often as I had also brought one of his favourite toys, his Teddy Bear with me to the office (carefully tucked away in my purse). I felt as though he was beside me all day.

The walk to the house after work felt long as I climbed the steps to the house, the realization that there would not be someone waiting for me on the other side hit me like a ton of bricks. As I turned the key in the door, I still hung onto hope that I would see him as I opened the door and called out to him. But he was not there. I locked the door behind me and stepped into my new reality. Alvin is only a memory now, a recent one but now a memory. One to remain in my memory and in my heart for all time. I will always remember that little guy who brought so much joy and laughter to my life.

We did not have coffee at the office yesterday so I made a pot when I got home from work. By this time, I had a headache from lack of caffeine, I suppose. I took a few minutes to just enjoy the coffee before starting supper as Amanda was coming for a sleepover after work and a dental appointment. She arrived earlier than expected which was wonderful. Supper was a bit later. Tears were shed. It is difficult for her when she steps into the house and Alvin is not there to greet her. No barks of joy. No little fur bundle looking out the window waiting for her to come into the house. It was definitely a difficult moment. We had a good evening. Even a wee bit of laughter.

Time to head downstairs as I have to make a pot of coffee before work as we have none.

I hope that you are safe, warm and have a wonderful Tuesday.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, love, laughter, understanding, gratitude, focus, possibilities, coffee and forgiveness.

Always, Carol & Alvin, my forever Angel.

The New YEAR 2022

Good Morning. Well my anxiety level has decreased somewhat but still no capture. I have moved my workstation upstairs to my personal office and confused Mr. Alvin. He wants to be downstairs and just does not understand.

Thanks to my next door neighbour for bringing me coffee as I will have to wait to make my own until the weekend. Thanks to my daughter for ordering me a new coffee perk. I am not sure that I will be able to actually make coffee – if I can stay in the kitchen that long. Longest time I spend in there now is to get Alvin’s breakfast and supper. Yesterday my neighbour also helped me take down the Christmas tree. Which has opened up the living room space and gives me breathing room. All the other decorations remain up at this point.

Also thanks to my daughter for stopping by on her way home from work and for bringing me supper.

I am running late as I could not close my eyes without seeing you know what. Sometimes even just the mere thought drives me to the edge. I know that I have to be strong and I can get through this.

We have make contact with professionals via email and I will call them today to see what can be done. I cannot live like this for long and neither can Mr. Alvin. I realize that all these extra trips upstairs is not great for his poor legs but if need be I will carry him up and down.

I must go and get to work. Truly short commute. One chair over.

I wish you a wonderful day. With no anxieties.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, love, laughter, understanding, gratitude, focus and possibilities.

Always, Carol & Alvin

Second Half of the NEW YEAR.

Good Morning and Welcome to a very Windy Tuesday.

The sky was overcast earlier but is beginning to clear.

With hopes of a bright sunny day with no rain.

We do need the sunshine.

The crops and gardens need the sunshine as do the animal life including we humans.

 

Last night after work we went out for our walk.

It was super cloudy with a great chance of rain or so I thought by the looks of the sky.

But I wanted to get a second walk in if it were possible.

We were just a few doors down when I heard music turning my head to listen, I was startled by someone calling my name.

One of our friends down the street was in her front yard and was partially hidden by her tree.

She wanted to chat.

Her son had made her a new wooden television stand and she had a brand new t.v.

He did a beautiful job as the pieces of the stand were carved and then put together.

Very nice.

So we chatted and was nice to catch up.

During this time it started to pour so when we left no further walking.

We ran to our house.

I dried Mr. Alvin off including his ears.

He is prone to yeast infections in his ears if they get wet.

So always watching them.

 

Last night after supper,  I had brand new combination smoke/carbon monoxide detectors installed on all three levels of my house.

So happy to have that done.

The last ones had expired as I did not realized that they had to be replaced.

They are hard-wired HOWEVER the battery life of the detectors only last a specific amount of time before need to be replaced.

The new ones are 10 years.

2030 they will need to be replaced.

Will check the date on the box to ensure that they weren’t sitting on the shelves for a year or more.

Very happy it has been done.

Another job checked off my TO DO LIST for this summer.

I am most grateful.

 

I noticed on the front door wreath last night I had a little visitor.

I suppose he/she stopped to take a rest perhaps thinking what a pretty flower.

Sorry it was not a real flower.

So beautiful.

DRAGONFLIES are one of my most favourite creatures on this Earth.

Also reminded me to find a way to clean that wreath which is starting to look a bit on the dingy side.

 

Well time to get to work.

We were up early before settling on the sofa.

I believe it was 3:30 a.m.

I gave MR. Alvin his very last pain med with hopes that he could settle down and sleep.

I woke up with a headache.

Go figure.

So decided against coffee this morning.

Just water today.

 

Time to go.

Wishing you a great day.

Maybe something will come off your “TO DO LIST.”

Remembering always to live with kindness and respect for all living creatures and our environment.

I/We, shall remain,

Always, Carol & Mr. Alvin