Thought for the day ……

Good Morning and Welcome to Saturday the 10th day of November, 2018.

Today my second youngest brother would have been “55” years old.

He passed in March of 2009.

We miss him terribly.

Today I am thinking of him and our loss of his spirit.

We miss you buddy.

The boy with the big heart.

 

 

IF I HAD KNOWN

Looking at photos of us when we were kids.

It seems like only yesterday,

but it was a lifetime ago.

Things have changed.

We were five now we’re four.

How I long for those days.

When we were all together.

When playing school, all sitting in a row … I’d be the teacher…

Running about the yard playing in a nearby slough looking for tadpoles …

Playing in the dirt ….

Imagining driving to far off places in that old black car, and eating Mom’s homemade french fries and pumpkin pie.

Playing hide and seek and watching Disney on Sundays.

Was what we did, when we were just kids.

Now we’re grown,

Time has past.

If only I had known,

We would be four and not five.

I would have taken your hand.

I would have told you how much I loved you every day.

I would have loved you better.

I would have visited you more often.

I should have tried.

I would have known your pain.

I would have understood.

I would have known your favourite song.

I would have known your favourite colour.

I would have known you better.

Now we’re four and it’s too late

For me to take your hand.

To share your pain, and to comfort you.

I wished that I had knew you better.

Between the pain and the laughter.

You were a man, and I remember the boy

The little boy with a zest for life.

The little boy that always seemed to find a way ….. now that’s our secret….

That irresistible little guy that made me smile.

The little boy with such a big heart.

That much I did know when the boy became the man.

I feel that I let you down, but it is too late

I wished that I knew your favourite song.

Or what you made you cry late at night.

Why the time passed so fast.

Now we’re four instead of five

What did you think?  Your thoughts?

I wished that I knew.

If I had, I had only known  the man, not just the boy.

 

Written by Carol Yvonne Lewis, January 8th, 2010

Jeff and his sisters at Christmas

Grandpa Jim & All 5 of us ……

Jeff & two of five (Cindy & John)

Jeff and three of five (Carol, Cindy & John)

Jeff and Five of Five (Tyler, Cindy, Carol & John) – 1992

 

Special Hello to: my little brother ….. miss you

Always, Carol & Alvin

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Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Monday the 5th day of November, 2018.

Time changed over the weekend.

So even though the clock shows 6:15 a.m., it still feels like 5:15 a.m.

We set our clocks one hour back …. Fall back.

We will get used to it at some point.

Change is good?

 

Rain and snow mix gradually over the course of the day and night turned to just the white stuff.

So we have a nice white blanket covering the ground this morning.

This means some shovelling in my future (tonight).

Exercise – it is all good.

Also is a reminder to get out and pick up poop as it happens otherwise you may have to seek it out and that can be difficult.

Okay, perhaps that was a bit more information that you needed or wanted.

Sorry.

 

I was just thinking this morning about something.

Was there a point in your life that defined your future?

Something that changed the way you thought about the future  or the way that you looked at the world, your world?

An event perhaps that spoke to you?

Someone you met?

A place you travelled to?

Something you ate?

Now there could absolutely be more than one point that changed the trajectory of your life at that point.

These babies, my four siblings.

Changed the trajectory of my life.

They were my first babies.

And, feel so to this day.

I have felt like their Mom, their teacher, their protector.

These four lights changed my life forever.

They formed me into who I am today.

I am forever grateful.

 

Well almost time to don the winter garb and head out.

Happy Monday.

Special Hello to: my sister and brothers.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Friday the 2nd day of November, 2018.

Did you flip your calendar?

Doesn’t it seem like October?

Where did it go?

The months seem to be passing in supersonic mode.

Anyway Welcome November ….

We woke up to SNOW this morning.

A beautiful fresh blanket.

Not the wet stuff …. but a nice blanket of light snow that is easy to shovel.

I already shovelled a bit of snow off the deck.

Last night we enjoyed our walk.

Just as we neared Teddy’s house, Alvin spotted the garage door open.

Made a beeline for the house.

Teddy’s Dad invited us in to say Hello.

In we went.

You cannot turn down a nice invitation like that ….

They are such awesome people.

Teddy’s parents.

Teddy will be coming for a visit for 12 days or so starting next Tuesday night.

I know that Alvin is excited.

He will have a “brother” for near a couple of weeks.

Good for him to have some company.

He is getting a bit better at sharing although he does have a long way to go.

Well it is 6:30 a.m.

Where did the time go.

Of course, Mr. Alvin has been having been up at 3:30 the past few mornings.

ARGH.

But we do have a bit of extra sleep on the sofa after he has done what he needed to do.

So that helps.

I guess we change our time this Sunday.

One hour back.

Not sure if that is good or not.

Any and all time changes take a certain amount of adjustment.

That is for sure.

Thankfully it happens on the weekend.

Well nice to just slip on blue jeans this morning for work.

I so appreciate our casual Fridays.

Also last night I took down the few outdoor Halloween/Fall decorations that I had put up.

As well as the indoor ones.

Which was good now with the snow.

I am going to put away the FALL wreath before I leave for work as well.

TONIGHT …. oh, tonight.

My daughter is picking me up from work.

With a couple of quick stops at grocery store and vet – food for all of us …. we will head home.

Home where I shall make a stir-fry for supper.

One of my daughter’s fav meals.

Then after supper ….. the TREE will go up.

Followed by decorating the house all weekend.

My daughter is spending the night.

I am not physically able to put up the tree.

Although if I was pushed perhaps I could.

Nothing is impossible.

Just the tree is 7.5 and heavy to assemble by oneself.

Well time to fly.

Likely more like sledding …. snow …. smiling.

Boots and winter coat for sure this morning….

 

Happy Friday.

So excited.

Happy Dancing.

 

Special Hello to: my sister ….. love you, my darling.

Always, Carol & Alvin

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Thursday the 18th day of October, 2018.

Dark outside, guess we have to get used to it once again.

It will be several months before we see light at this time of day.

But that is okay.

 

Everything is equal in the darkness.

Meaning you can not see anything so everything is equal.

No divisions or egos or opinions to get in the way in the dark.

What you cannot see, still is, but is equal until it is not.

Isn’t that funny?

Strange thought?

We place too many labels on people, things, and situations.

We place too much stress on ourselves and then onto others.

We need to relax and just be.

Do your job.

Write your book.

Live your dreams.

One moment at a time.

Just breathe.

See the darkness not for what it is but what it can be.

Meaning the light will come and then you can see things as they are.

 

This morning once again Mr. Alvin in his way gave me a very important moment.

In the bathroom (no details) and he wanted me to massage his neck.

He sits there enjoying the moment.

Then he stands up and wants me to massage his back and upper tail area.

Okay upper bum area ….. but his tail ….. anyway.

He is loving it.

Quietly standing.

Then after I am finished.

He stands up on his hind legs and gives me kisses.

Something that only takes a few minutes clearly made him feel good.

It is those little things that make us feel amazing.

Good for him and good for me.

 

Well almost time to leave for work.

My carpool is home sick for another day.

Sending good health energy her way.

 

I hope that you all have a great day.

I may not always say it but I appreciate you all.

My family and oh my friends.

I have the best friends on the planet.

My sister is second to none.

My brothers, I love them.

All the nephews and nieces and cousins, thank you.

I am grateful to have my own home.

I am grateful to have the best companion, Mr. Alvin.

I am grateful to be creative and to have employment.

I am grateful to see, hear, smell and to touch.

I am grateful for all the experiences of each day.

I am grateful for my life.

 

Special Hello to: my sister, thank you for your wonderful comments and for reading my blog every day.  Have a great Thursday.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

PS: yesterday was so beautiful.  Wore capris and short sleeved t-shirt on our walk after work.  WE LOVED THE WALK. Still some beautifully coloured leaves remaining on some of the trees.

Still some green leaves.  Grass is green.  Loved hearing Mr. Alvin crunching the leaves as we walked along.

 

 

 

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 19th day of September, 2018.

I almost said June …. not sure what I was thinking about …. ???

It was dark but dry but when we got up this morning and nothing has changed thus far.

They are forecasting temperatures of about 14 degrees celsius, which would be BEAUTIFUL.

Last night Alvin and I went for a walk after work with our friend “P.”

We walked around the big lake to the north of us (first of all we walked to our friend’s house as we were ready more quickly than I first thought).

It was beautiful.

Some of the leaves are changing colour to hues of yellow and orange while the others are bitterly hanging onto to their greens.

Lots of folks out walking with loved ones both two and four-legged.

The SUN was shining and there was just the perfect warmth-cool mix to the air.

We thoroughly enjoyed our walk.

We will be going again tonight.

 

After our walk and before supper, I decided to put away the remaining or at least the bigger pieces.

Leaving only the bistro table (which I should not lift into the garage) and its’ two chairs.

The deck looked so bare.

I decided as we only have a couple of days left without the forecast of moisture (rain & snow) to put the flowers back onto the deck.

I had placed a few pots into the garage last week.

Kept them watered and they lived.

The only pot that I left in the garage is the lavender plant as I want to dry the flowers and put it in the basement to winter there.

 

I decided mid point in the week is a good time to put up some photos.

The ones with the snow were from this past Saturday and the one with the flowers in the “sunshine” are from last night.

There was even a reflection on the fence by the sunflowers, do you see it?

All I can say is my poor Sunflowers from Saturday.

The one on the left, actually broke right at the base of the stalk and was just kind of there.

Poor thing

 

 

My friend P said that the Snapdragons are quite hardy.

The impatiens …. they were starting to get weak in the garage.

Anyway, that was last night.

I am glad to see some colour on the deck even if it is only for a couple more days.

 

I hope that you all have an awesome Wednesday.

Happy Birthday to my old neighbour who built a new house, and moved to a neighbourhood about 6 minutes away by car.

Happy Birthday “S” ……

 

Special Hello to: my sister and my friend V …… ladies you rock.

Always, Carol & Alvin

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Tuesday the 18th day of September, 2018.

No moisture overnight.

Sidewalks are dry.

Alvin is laying on his blue blanket and sound asleep.

He can sleep anywhere, so cute.

I sure love that guy.

 

Happy Birthday to “G” …… he came into our lives almost ten year ago.

Alvin and I wish you the best birthday.

Have an awesome day and take some time off work.

Can someone reading this post please pass this message to him.

You know who you are.

Smiling….. thank you.

 

Last night I put away the last of the furniture from the deck.

Actually I have a river rock top bistro table and two chairs remaining.

I will leave them out for now.

The bistro table is heavy so might need a hand putting it into the garage.

The flowers are hanging in their inside of the garage although we have not had much sunshine as of late.

Perhaps it is time to just dig them up …. they are still so pretty.

I feel that they are cold in the garage …. my poor little flowers.

Still have to do something with the lavender as it smells too good to waste.

Keeps me busy.

Oh, I have lots of snapdragon seeds for next year.

 

Last night we walked with our friend “P.”

We did the walk in just over 45 minutes.

About halfway into it or so …. Alvin wanted to turn around …. but we urged him to continue.

He did …. we did.

With the snow and rain on the weekend we did not walk Saturday or Sunday.

Always good to get exercise whenever you can.

Especially when you like “treats” and both Alvin and I like the treats.

I will say that his treats are more healthy than mine

 

We noticed on our walk last night that the gulls, pigeons, magpies and crows are all starting to hang out on the rooftops.

I bet near the chimneys for warmth.

 

Well here we go for Tuesday.

Another Tuesday.

I hope that you have an awesome Tuesday.

 

Special Hello to: my sister ….

Always, Carol & Alvin

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Wednesday the 29th day of August, 2018.

It is dark out although the sky appears to be getting light now at 6:15 a.m.

No rain overnight.

The smoke seems to have lightened mostly and I hope that the fires in British Columbia and elsewhere are going out or have gone out.

I wanted to share another “Apple Crisp” story …

Last night with nothing left that resembles milk in any fashion; I opted to use the “choke cherry syrup” that Teddy’s Mom gave me.

It was so good, I may have to use it instead of milk for awhile.

The syrup was so good.

 

Of all the time we spend on this earth most of it is spent fashioning relationships.

We have positive and negatives relationships.

There are ones that make you want to pull out your hair and then there are ones that you simply cannot live without.

I think because we have both YING and YANG in our life’s relationships that keep us growing and living.

They keep us falling in love, in love and falling out of love.

They help us manage our lives.

Without relationships we would not exist.

In my opinion.

Even if you live on your own like me, relationships of all sorts play an important role.

 

My relationship with my four-legged buddy, Alvin.

He “loves me unconditionally.” (more when I have treats, of course).

He is happy when he gets a neck massage.

He makes me smile.

He makes me feel important.

 

My relationship with my daughter.

One of the most important of my life.

She is the best and not just because she is my daughter but because she is this warm, kind and generous human being.

She lights my day and night sky.

I feel as though she was my most best achievement.

Giving birth to her changed my life.

 

We have our relationships with our siblings.

My sister and I share this incredible bond.

Our lives.

We sound almost identical and are eighteen months apart, so not twins.

She has been there forever ( I am the older of us).

She makes me laugh and no one tells a joke like she does.

She is a great reminder of what was, what is and what can be.

I have two brothers whom I love very much.

My only regret is that I do not know them as well as I should.

Life happens.

 

I have relationships with people that I grew up with, school chums, work mates, neighbours and other folks that I have met on the bus or along my 60+ years.

They all play an important role in who I am.

I am what I am because of all of these relationships.

Mostly positive.

 

Well time to go to work.

I hope that you will think about your relationships as they are so important to each of us.

 

Happy Wednesday.

 

Special Hello to: my sister and all of my girl friends.  Thank you for being in my life.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

 

 

 

 

Thought for the day …..

Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 12th day of August, 2018.

The sky is overcast and it has been RAINING off and on since last night.

Oh, we are grateful for the rain.

I hope that RAIN comes to those areas affected by the forest fires everywhere.

It seems as though the vast majority of the WESTERN COAST of NORTH AMERICA is on fire.

My heart goes out to the folks, my soul hurts for the animals and wildlife that have not been able to escape the fiery inferno.

 

It seems like only yesterday that my house was filled with family.

It seems like only yesterday that my daughter and I were setting out on our trip, my birthday adventure, our mini vacation.

It seems like only yesterday that I celebrated my 60th birthday and now I am 61.  “How did that happen?”

Time flies.

 

Both Alvin and I are feeling lazy today.

He has not even ate breakfast (likely because he had lots to eat last night).

Teddy was with us from Friday morning until late yesterday afternoon.

 

One of my co-workers who happens to be this amazing baker – dropped off my BIRTHDAY CARROT CAKE in the morning.

IT IS GORGEOUS.

 

Yesterday afternoon one of my dear friends came to share my birthday cake.

We had a great visit.

She brought me a sweet pea bouquet from her garden as well as a bag of apples and some other gifts.

She has quite the green thumb.

I see an apple crisp in my future.

Teddy’s Mom brought me apples from her garden a few days ago.

Lots of apples.

In the evening our friends “A” and “J” and Jazmine (pup) from just a few doors down.

One from one way and J&J from the other way.

One friend brought me a beautiful AFRICAN VIOLET plant ( I see a theme rising here).

Candles were another theme.

We had wine, coffee, water and CAKE.

Just the birthday cake.

This is the most glorious CARROT CAKE.

This year it is a layer cake and is so delectable.

I could eat it morning, noon and night.

Then I would not be able to get into my clothes.

So much visiting with dear friends last night.

 

I have received emails, messages on FB, cards, people coming to see me, phone calls – feeling so loved.

I am so grateful to be surrounded by the BEST PEOPLE on the planet.

 

Well time to go and check on Humphrey and Cinder, our charges.

Their Momma comes home today.

 

I feel like toast and coffee ……

 

I am working on my vacation story in my head and will have it done soon.

So much to tell you.

 

Laughter is the best medicine and I am grateful for the laughter that my family and friends share with me.

Life whether long or short must be enjoyed to the fullest.

 

Time to go and check on Sir Humphrey and Miss Cinder.

 

Special Hello to:  YOU, thank you.

Always, Carol & Alvin

 

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Sunday the 5th day of August, 2018.

The house is quiet at the moment except for the whirring of the fan downstairs.

My sister, Alvin and I are awake but not wanting to disturb the sleeping ones.

It is getting late – 9:30 – so soon we shall just go downstairs.

Alvin and I were up earlier for him to eat and go outside.

 

The sun is shining and it looks like a beautiful day on the way.

YAY.

 

We had a great time yesterday.

The birthday party was a huge success.

 

Today the family leaves for Calgary.

A couple of days staying at a hotel with a pool/waterslide, I think.

They will visit with our youngest brother.

The days passed so quickly ….. they always do when you have company ….. on vacation.

Alvin will miss everyone most especially my sister.

 

Yesterday we walked to the service station just out of our immediate neighbourhood.

Alvin and I waited on the corner as I did not wish him to walk on the street.

Busy streets with traffic lights.

He cried and tugged on the leash for her from the time she crossed the streets to the time she was back with us.

Was glad when she arrived back.

He loves his Auntie C.

I am so glad that they were all able to come and spend some time with us.

It was great getting to know the great nephews.

 

Well time to get this show on the road.

Have an awesome Sunday and enjoy the day.

 

Special Hello to:  my friend “V” in Regina, hope you are having a great summer.

Always, Carol & Alvin

Thought for the day ….

Good Morning and Welcome to Friday the 3rd day of August, 2018.

Well it is a much cooler morning and it is RAINING.

Our house is cooler and more comfortable.

No need to run fans or have windows open.

Nice break from the heat.

 

Last night / late afternoon, my sister, Alvin and I went for a nice walk.

It was raining just slightly when we started our walk.

But it was so refreshing.

 

My sister and I are getting ready as at some point we are going to West Edmonton Mall with her grandson/my great nephew to do some shopping.

He would like to look around as he has not been there lately.

Our ride will arrive sometime during the next hour or so.

 

Last night I made a rhubarb crisp from the rhubarb that one of my coworkers gave me.

OMG, so good.

Nothing like fresh from the garden.

 

Well this will be short.

Life is good.

Keeping busy with company and trying to keep cool (loving it today).

 

Happy Vacation.

 

I hope that you all have a great day.

Special Hello to: my friends near and far.

Always, Carol & Alvin

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