2021

Good Morning All! How are you doing this Friday morning? We are good and just back home from one of our three daily 10 minute walks. I must say that I enjoy this first one the most. We had a bit of rain earlier when we were outside and now just cool and chilly.

Last night after working the late shift till 7 pm and having a quick bite to eat, one of my friends G came over for a visit about 8 pm and we chatted till 1015 pm. The night just flew as we chatted catching up in our news. To be honest there wasn’t to much new with me. We had the odd laugh about something or other but mainly serious talk which sometimes is necessary and we all need to “vent” and get things off our chests. We did just that. Alvin was so happy to see her that he spent most of the evening sitting beside us on the sofa.

I think it is supposed to be nice over the weekend so will get more yard work done and obviously house stuff as well. I am going through things in the basement to downsize the things that have accumulated down there. Sell a few things, give away and recycle. Always a big job. If I am going to be downstairs for any length of time I will have to carry Alvin down there so he doesn’t bark. Life.

well it is almost that time once again. It seems lately I am always running a bit late. Sure will enjoy coffee this morning.

I hope that you have a great Friday. Someone just grabbed his Teddy to play and looks like he wants me to play. Better ho.

Hard to believe that I started this blog when I was 51 and newly retired and now I am 64 and working full time for ten years. Life is interesting I will say that.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Love Carol&Alvin

2021

Good Morning ALL! How are you today? It is a cool bright sunny morning here in Edmonton with a temperature of 10 degrees celsius. Very refreshing. This will be a brief post as I am upstairs on the computer. I had some banking to do this morning and of course, Mr. Alvin is not happy and has been barking since I came upstairs. Does not help with my ever increasing anxiety. I am thinking at this rate, I will be taking medicine soon, lol. He does not bark every morning but for some reason this morning …. he is and he has the most down to the bones frustrating as I cannot think of a word to describe it at this moment. Anyway, not pleasant to listen to. We did not sleep well. Bed at 10 p.m. and up at 2:50 a.m. and then outside twice and back to bed (on main floor) at 3:30. He woke up at 5:52 a.m. and had his breakfast and back outside. I just needed more sleep so back to sleep although I am pretty sure that he did not sleep. If I could just have some decent sleep it would make things so much more easier to deal with. But alas I feel that it is not in my cards.

I am going to give him his next round of meds right away here and then go for a quick walk before starting work. Coffee is definitely going to be my best friend today.

I am so grateful to my friend Gillian for going and picking up Alvin’s medicine yesterday. If I did not have such great kids and friends, I would be in some serious trouble.

Looks like tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday are going to be in the 30’s. Won’t that be lovely. I am going to give Mr.Alvin a haircut this evening and then just a sponge bath to remove any extra hair. Otherwise it will be brutal giving him a haircut when it is so hot.

Well I must go before he has a coronary – is that even possible with dogs. OR else his Momma may have.

I think that the windows are open downstairs so the neighbours or anyone going by will hear his cries and think he is in trouble. What a guy!

Anyway, I wish you a great day. Things will get better. I sure hope so anyway.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, PATIENCE, understanding, love and gratitude.

Always, Carol & Alvin

2021

Good Morning All! How are you? I’m okay and Alvin is recovering. Body wise faster than mind. We slept on the main floor last night as I am realizing that carrying him upstairs isn’t great for either of us. I had to carry him not over my shoulder but upright against me and likely not the most comfortable way to be carried for a dog. Is there a comfortable way, I don’t know. Somewhere along the line I think I sprained the muscles or pulled something in the top of my foot, likely from carrying Alvin. He is not a light fireball. So there’s that. Oh well, we shall get through this at some point.

We went for our first little walk a few minutes ago and the wind is cool and strong. Some of the leaves are blowing off the trees. It is funny that the leaves on my tree are similar to the ones on the front door wreath. I was wondering at first.

oh, by the way, I think it works better if we sleep on the main floor, Alvin on his bed and me kn the sofa. I did get 4.5 hours in one stretch.

I also wanted to mention back to my birthday. I had the best visit with my cousin Lorette and her husband Wayne. I loved her goat story and maybe one day I will pass the story on as it still makes me smile. Honestly I need to smile and it is tough at the moment. But as with anything time will pass and hopefully all will be good again.

Man, that wind is strong.

Last night I gave the remaining birthday cake of which I had three. I had eaten so much and it was telling me to share and I did. Cake all gone. I am grateful to everyone who made my 64th Birthday extra special.

Well I need coffee snd it is ready. The aroma divine. Besides I did not retire overnight but that would have been sweet.

Have a great day.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience (working on this one most of all), understanding, love and gratitude.

Always Carol&Alvin

2021

Good Morning All! It is a gorgeous morning here in Edmonton. I hope that this finds you well.

Today is my 64th birthday. It is also the 54th birthday of my cousin Michael, birthdays for friends April and Dennis.

So on this 64th Birthday- I am grateful:

I am grateful that I thought to book this day off as vacation.

I am grateful that we finally moved upstairs to sleep after five weeks on the sofa.

I am grateful that Alvin is well on the road to recovery.

I am over the moon grateful for my daughter, son-in-law and grand pups.

I am so grateful for the best friends in the universe.

I am grateful for the beautiful bouquet of flowers delivered to my door yesterday from my kids.

I am grateful to have my own home.

I am grateful for the recent rain.

I am grateful that I am surrounded by good people.

I am grateful to see green lush trees out my front window.

I am grateful to all my family and friends who reached out to me this morning via phone, text, emails and on social media.

I am grateful to be in good health.

I am grateful that I sat up in bed this morning reaching my toes to the floor for the 64th year.

Alvin has his first of six laser therapy sessions this morning. A friend down the street will drive us to and from his appointment. My cousins Lorette and Wayne are coming for a visit. I even have birthday cake to share. Now time for some toast. Also I have lots of food in the fridge so no cooking this week for me.

Amanda and Steven had supper with me last night. We had our fav meal: homemade “chicken fingers” with honey mustard sauce, potato salad and vegetables. I made a vanilla layer cake, too. It was great.

My life is good.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Always Carol&Alvin

2021

Good Morning All! I hope this finds you well. We or rather Alvin slept from 930 last night until 500 this morning. For some reason I did not fall asleep until much later. Having the fans running makes me stuffy so I was finding it a bit difficult to breathe comfortably. I did get up and turn one of the three fans off. I was cool and had a blanket on but Mr. Alvin with his fur coat needs to have it cooler. Anyway, I am so happy that he slept so well. His next rounds of meds is at 545 so I figured as I did yesterday- write this post and then give him his meds. We can lay down for a bit after that. Such as my life.

Yesterday we had a walk about 830 in the morning which was great. He did well. About 230 we went again and although in the beginning he did well, on the second half I realized that perhaps it was too warm. Note to self. There was a breeze so initially it didn’t feel as warm as the reported temperature. I massaged his leg once we got home.

Our day to day will change dramatically once I go back to work but gratefully I am working from home.

Tomorrow the staples come out and I can finally breathe again. I will admit that they do freak me out. Also I am still debating as keeping upstairs again if only I can come up with a solution to keep him from jumping off the bed.

I dream of our life before this incident and wish it were back. Somedays it just seems so complicated. I want to go up and down the stairs when I wish. I want Alvin to follow me as I water the flowers on the deck. I want him to go upstairs at night with me to bed. I want a lot of things, I guess. If I’m listing wants, no mortgage would be awesome as well. We will carry on each day making progress and changing our old ways to new ways. They may not be perfect but I guess what is. Each day we make progress.

The sun is beginning to rise as it becomes light outside. A new day dawns.

Are you watching the Olympics from Tokyo? Those poor athletes that have their events outside in such humid hot temperatures. They are amazing.

Just about time for Alvin’s meds and then we shall lie down for a bit more sleep.
Perhaps tonight will be the night that we both sleep well.

Alvin just tried to be a lap puppy’s and realized that would not work.

Have a great Wednesday.

Continuing to live this life with kindness, , compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Always Carol&Alvin

2021

Good morning All! How are you today? Thursday, I think? The days are running together. There have been a few points when I was oh so tempted to grab my sandals and keys and leave. The front door looks so tempting. Another mixed up semi sleepless night. More on the no sleep than sleep. Reminds me of being a Mom when my daughter was colicky. No sleep. Being alone and caring for another life whether two or four-legged is not easy. Alvin panted for hours on end despite multiple trips outside during the night, rub down with wet cloth and his meds, I could not console him. No one was here to console me and I had an equally miserable night. Unpleasant thoughts took over my mind. It is hard to have continued loving, kind and respectful thoughts when you are so tired you just want to cry or run away. I would never harm Alvin despite being so distraught but I’m sure he could feel the words hit his heart. I’m sorry Alvin.

Tomorrow is one week since his surgery. I pray and hope that things drastically improve soon. Now of course things are way better than last weekend. That first night we camped out on the living room floor and there is no way that I could have got through it without my daughter being here.

It just seems that at times there is nothing I can do to make things better. Alvin is an anxious guy and that anxiety can push over the positive effect that his meds would have on him. I honestly do not know how he functions at all. Not much sleep and being anxious.

On a positive note when we were outside the last time I decided to put in on the love seat blocking any escape. He seemed to enjoy it for a few minutes while I deadheaded some of my flowers as bf gave a drink to others. Those glorious moments did not last but at least I had them.

I am so sorry to be venting but I hope if there are others out there in a similar situation that you will know you are not alone. In the wee hours of the night/morning I am with you and knowing that this too yet shall pass.

There is no way that I could have envisioned this happening and spending literally months sleeping on the sofa. Oh, I would give almost anything to sleep one whole night in my bed upstairs. We have a long way to go and there will be ups and downs such as there is in life. But I know I will get through and Alvin will as well.

Well time for more caffeine. I look forward to walks in time. I pray his knee heals.

Thank you for reading this post and continuing to follow me on this path which is my life.

Fingers crossed when I start back to work and so grateful I can continue to work from home.

Continuing with all my might and a few slip ups to live with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Always Carol&Alvin

2021

Good Morning All! Trust you are well on this Wednesday morning. We have a good sleep. The first time we were outside it was lightly raining, almost like a heavy mist. I didn’t feel it on my face but when we got back into the house, I found my jacket to be wet. The pavement is wet so that is a good sign. Still raining now which we so desperately need. I hope this rain, this moisture has gone to wherever there are fires.

The timeline is fast approaching for Alvin’s surgery and I won’t tell you that I am a bit nervous, okay a lot. He is older, 12.5 years. He recovered quickly from his last surgery in February snd I sure hope it is the same this time. I also know that as before I must think and say he will be fine and recover as he should. I need to get into the positive self talk position once again. It is easy to regress. He has always been a strong guy and I’m certain that he will continue to prove me right.

Sure happy to have the rain for my flowers, the trees, grass and gardens. The trees even seem more green this morning as goes the grass.

The world or in my world is coming alive as the morning progresses. Cars going by, people out walking with their pups and the hum of the nearby highway.

I hope that you have a great day.

I continue to live each day with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Love Carol&Alvin

2021

Good Morning ALL! How are you on this smoky cloudy morning? My thoughts are going to the people and all the animals living in the areas affected by the wildfires/fires. I cannot imagine. Here in Edmonton it is smoky and yesterday I had to close the windows as the smell of smoke was begin to affect my breathing. I am praying for rain for BC with no wind or lightning.

Does it not always seem to happen that when things all go wrong it is all at once.

My venting ….. as Alvin is barking downstairs and I decided to write this post on my computer upstairs just for a change to feel somewhat normal. Although our lives are not normal at the moment.

So yesterday I had been wearing two very delicate gold bracelets and noticed one was missing. I searched high and low but it is gone. Somewhere in the house or outside. I have a feeling it fell off outside and went down in between the cracks on the deck.

I ran to the mailbox to pick up the mail which I have not done in a long time. There was a package for me. I was so excited. When I opened the package, I found the earrings that I had ordered from Fifth Avenue that had been on backorder. I gingerly unwrapped them to find that the posts were bent on the ends and the backs were on so tight that I barely got one off. Definitely cannot wear them. Damaged before even the opportunity to wear them. Makes me so sad and a little mad.

Going back to the a/c servicing that was supposed to be on Wednesday that we had patiently waited for and then did not show up. When I called the company yesterday morning, I found out that the person I spoke with when they were late showing up – had cancelled the appointment and scheduled it for Saturday when they come to check out the hot water tank. The hot water tank was positioned in a way that blocks off access to the sump pump.

Alvin barking and whining downstairs.

It is not often if at all that I spend my whole post with negative thoughts. I apologize but I just had to get them out. Just seems that everything is going to hell in a handbasket.

Then Alvin has surgery next Friday.

Too much and I am feeling a bit frazzled.

Please forgive this venting as I am well aware in a better state of mind that I am very blessed. I live in a great house/home, I have a yard, I am employed, I am in good health, I have incredible family and friends and so much more. But sometimes life gets the better of us and I am afraid I am at that point. Deep breaths, I know.

I have a headache from the smoke and from someone’s barking. I know he just has anxiety from me not being in his sight but …… oh, I wish.

Okay, I have to go now.

I will be back tomorrow and I will be in a better frame of mind, I promise.

Trying to life with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Always, Carol & Alvin

2021

Good Morning All! How are you this Wednesday morning? Alvin and I were up late as it was so hot in the house last night. Needless to say we couldn’t settle down to sleep very quickly. Also I could not stop the thoughts from pouring into my head. That was last night and this is today. The house did cool down somewhat as the outside temperature dipped to about 17 degrees Celsius last night. Because of timing and this beautiful morning we are comfortably sitting on the love seat on the deck. Yup, you guessed it I am writing my blog using my phone and with one finger. Actually I started to use my phone a few days ago as Alvin just cannot bear for me to be upstairs without him. So here we are. It is absolutely gorgeous out here. I have 18 minutes till work starts for me.

Yesterday, with my late work start we sat out on the deck for quite a long while enjoying the flowers, the birds, the cool air, the sounds of life outside our estate. To me, this is our estate, our sanctuary, our place, our home.

I’m going to share more flower photos because they make me happy and I hope they will brighten yours as well.

I hope you have a great day.

Plus couple of others of Alvin and me.

well almost time to head back inside. Wished I would have moved faster and had my coffee outside, perhaps again tomorrow. The a/c is getting serviced today so we shall sleep well tonight.

Continuing to live this life with respect, kindness, compassion, patience, understanding, love and gratitude.

Always Carol&Alvin

2021

Good Morning ALL! How are you doing this Tuesday morning? Today i work the late shift so I start at 11:00 am. We had a good sleep although to bed quite a bit later than usual.

Last night just before sunset we were out on the deck. Me watering the front and back flower beds and the flower pots on the deck with Alvin keeping an eagle eye on my every move. Once done I thought we would just sit on the love seat which happens to be the boy’s favourite spot. I gently lifted him onto the sofa and then sat next to him. He got comfortable and then started to look about. If he heard a bird his head snapped in the direction of the chirping. Me on the other hand focused on the flowers on the upper deck which are a mass of bright colours. They just seemed to blend into each other. So beautiful. No bugs to disturb our peace. We must have sat there enjoying the most perfect evening for a good hour or so. The air was cool enough for Alvin in his fur coat and I even had on a light sweater/jacket. As the sun dipped in the evening sky, I thought how very lucky am I, are we, to have this little piece of heaven to call our own.

This morning first check was on my lilies. Yes, we have lift off- they are blooming.

I am so grateful for all the beautiful flowers.

well time to head upstairs and have a shower.

we may even be able to enjoy time on the deck before gets too warm. Tomorrow they are coming to service the air conditioning do we will be cool with resorting to fans all over the main floor.

I am so grateful for our life. There may be a wrench thrown in once in awhile to make us remember just how blessed we truly are although I’m not sure that Alvin would agree with that assessment. Poor little guy, I did not mean that he needs to have surgery for us to be grateful. Not at all.

Wishing you a great Tuesday.

Continuing to live with kindness, respect, compassion, patience, love, understanding and gratitude for all.

Love Carol&Alvin

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