Chapter Four:
November 1, 2013
Oh, how I loved that dress, and my mind flashes back to the junior high school dance where I first wore that beautiful pink and then I see my favourite books floating in mid air and my best friend “Dee” is there.
November 2, 2013
Alvin is staying very close as we begin to take in this enormous space, and our nervous energies feed each other, and I think of Alice in Wonderland, and what shall our next move be as a bright purple balloon drifts by.
November 3, 2013
It is absolutely amazing the dress, my friend, balloons, family, old boyfriends, my house, Christmas, all of the things that I have loved during my life are appearing as Alvin and I make our way through it all.
November 4, 2013
I realize throughout all of the memories that my “four” are no longer walking with us and have disappeared.
November 5, 2013
“Where did they go?” I mutter aloud as if I half expect Alvin to answer and yet I know that we are “down the rabbit hole and things are about to get very interesting.”
November 6, 2013
What do I do – what can I do – nothing makes any sense – why would they do this – am I a guinea pig of sorts – are they watching us – who are they – are the questions that flood my mind as we just walk not knowing what will happen next.
November 7, 2013
As we walk further into this new world, I begin to notice that we in fact are not alone.
November 8, 2013
I do not see anyone but I can feel “eyes” watching us as we go deeper into this place, and then out of no where the thought of “YOU ARE NOT ALONE” comes to my mind; like something out of a movie.
November 9, 2013
Carefully I look about not wanting to miss a single thing, and carefully monitoring my thoughts with hopes that I can find out my location without disturbing my “hosts” when in the distance I see a dim light.
November 10, 2013
As I approach the location of the light it becomes brighter and brighter with only about 50 footsteps away I can begin to see what lies ahead of us.
November 11, 2013
Could I ever have imagined this in my wildest dreams, I think not, as the images begin to sharpen and come into focus.
November 12, 2013
I stop, we stop, and I rub my eyes in disbelief as I look ahead and see what appears to be a glass wall with images of ….. ME.
November 13, 2013
There, only a few feet in front of us are ME at different ages, different stages of my life with some I recognize, and other versions are new to me.
November 14, 2013
I am shaking in disbelief and wonder at what is ahead of me; am I dreaming?
November 15, 2013
Alvin has been quiet for awhile just sniffing around the space when suddenly he yanks hard on the leash pulling me off balance knocking me to the ground.
November 16, 2013
As I lay there collecting my senses, Alvin rushes back to me tail wagging and licks my face; I giggle, looking up completely stunned, I see myself.
November 17, 2013
Wow, is that really me I think to myself and then utter a soft “Hello” as the other “me” smiles back at me……
November 18, 2013
“Please tell me where I am,” I say to her, and as I utter the words, she tells me without speaking that I am wherever I want to be.
November 19, 2013
Okay, I think let me give this a try as my mind unleashes the imagination that has been locked up as of late and before I could say anything we are curled up on a oversized leather sofa in front of a fireplace looking out of an enormous window to a breathtaking view of the mountains which are covered with snow; my heart leaps with excitement.
November 20, 2013
I had this dream when I won the lottery, and our family spent Christmas in this huge log cabin celebrating and being together it was amazing … oh, I feel so good.
My New Life @ 51 